supposed to be my bloc leaves week but worked throughout the week. my mgr got scared after this time round. she asked me to list down my job scope and all those small little details and standard operation procedures for my jobs so that when i m on leave, at least someone knows what / how to handle my work.
spent the week doing that and meeting up with tenants. did abit of PR. upon seeing me, everyone was like aiyoh what happen to you? so long never see you. you ok? must rest more leh. don't work so hard lar. relax lar. eat more ah. blah blah blah... hahaa
went shenton ktv with senses, j & jer on wed， 顺便 celebrate senses' birthday. senses asked if i asked the others as well. duhz.. only waste my sms / time / effort. all along the gang nv really enjoy singing. tort they enjoyed the card game than singing. so i concluded that with such little time notice, it was not worth asking. hehee
saw alex at the ktv. still as small size. knew that he worked there but nv know that he is still there. Tort this kind of job usually won't last long. guess i underestimate him. hee
was reading my diary yesterday. the period when i just got together with him. sweet / sad / angry / sour memories... i stopped writing after some time. y? cause things got worse. everyday i would write similar things which i saw no point in continuing. so i stopped.
K msged me at 4am this morning, asking to meet me in the evening. i found this very fishy. asked him what's the ocassion. he said nothing. rubbish~ later he told me a friend asked him how were things going on between 'him' and me. K told him just friends lor. immediately i told K, "who said we are friends?" think he was abit stunned to hear that. but can't b bothered. i asked k if 'he' has a gf. k said don't know. once again, rubbish~ his bro leh!! *phui* what a friend indeed.
met up with ro today. gave her the xmas pressie. still remember there was once we bought each other exactly the same photo frame for each other. lol. always enjoy talking to her. even though we were just sitting next to each other in our sec sch days, everyday we would still call and chat on the phone till wee hours. until my mum bth and had to ask how come in the sch talk so much already still not enough. hahaa
after that we went to bq to find her bf. had a drink and headed home soon after.
was telling jer and senses that tw has a gf. they were very curious abt her. promised to send them her pic. hehee but only managed to catch jer on msn. so i sent her the pic. we came to a conclusion. tw's taste has not changed yet. similar to his ex's pattern. lol. senses, i guess u must be damned kan cheong now. will not let you know which one. give u some clues: she is in my friendster's list. go and chk it out yourself.
yest i got 2 big blows in a row by 1 person.1stly: he has a gf... its kel who told me. he had a birthday bash at bq on xmas nite. his gf was there as well. kel went there and saw them. kel asked if i m still on talking terms with him. i said he nv called, neither did i. 2ndly: the gf was abit lian and not gd looking. wahkaoz~ how can he find such a ger to replace me??????????? damn it!
i don't know to say. had trouble sleeping last night. was thinking abt the past. it really freaked me out that he can actually change so fast. shd have known earlier that he is best with his mouth. good in talking. even i lost to him... juz 1 mth ago, he called to tell me he still loved me alot. now, he is hugging another ger in his arms. can i trust guy? all bullshits leh. but later, come to think abt it. 1mth before we got together, he was still crying over the previous relationship. 1mth later, we were together. so maybe i shouldn't be so surprised by this news. but an ugly ahlian gf... really cannot take it man. y i always lose to ah lian. previously, TP also like that. now him... treat me this way, will have karma one.. :(
what made me more frustrated is, KP knew this all along but nv tell me anything. still lied to me. can i still call him my friend? felt like a fool. y m i still brooding over him all these while when he is immersing himself in happiness?
having mixed feelings now. cant think.. *headache* wanna take leave but shd i? at home lagi jialat. what shd i do? maybe like wat joiz said, i juz need some time. but how long? argh! i hate guys!
is it because of the age or is it my life is just too bland? this x'mas is one of the most boring x'mas. went to a friend's place to eat and play mj. she din prepare any gift for us cos we nv mentioned anything abt the gift. joiz gave me body lotion from crabtree & evelyn. nice fragrance. thx joiz! i love it.
yest afternoon went to angie's place. after giving birth, she looks the same. still so skinny. ger was commenting that she doesn't look like someone who had just given birth. hopefully we will be like her next time also. her bb is abt 3kg. cute but i still cannot figure out she looks like who. some said look like father, don't real or not. how to differentiate lar. still so young leh. i reckoned they bullshit one. lol
supposed to meet poly friends for ktv in the noon but senses told me he needed to do some housekeeping and don't know what time could meet up. duhz... the onie one replied was suz. the rest no response. hai... hence it was cxl (once again).
saw chris online just now. asked him abt the next gathering. he told me cos i needed to attend the dnd so the gathering was cxl. den got to move on the jan already. where got such thing one lar. duhz...
today is his birthday. suddenly all the memories came back. last year this time, we were still together. happily celebrating his birthday with the usual gang. now, don't know if he is celebrating the birthday with his friends or who... have the urge to msg him but trying to ctrl myself. hate this feeling man... life is so meaningless now. But come to think about it, even if i m still with him, my life will also be as meaningless. senses, i know you don't like it. but no choice lar. let me let out the feelings bah. don't need to think of this inspirational phrases in your next blog. its ok. hehee
Sianz Sianz Sianz~~ This is the word that best describes my feelings right now. Almost 3 weeks nv work already. Today everyone thought I was going back to work, but I never turned up. Everyone kept calling / sms me. Duhz... My mgr failed to convey the msg to them. Far East Sq office is having X'mas lunch today. I can't go cause I am supposed to stay at home and rest. *Sob* But they told they will keep all my presents for me. Hehee Must bring many big paper bags to work on Tues. If not, cannot bring the gifts back. hahaa
Went for my checkup yest. Told my doc that I still feeling very lethargic these days. He said cos my intestine is currently under malfunction state. Others can absorb 80% of the nutrients yet, I can only absorb 50% the most. Duhz.. Lousy intestine. My colleague commented that I should ask the doc if I can go for intestine transplant. Not a bad idea. Shall ask the doc next time.
These days my legs and stamina are so weak that I dare not go out alone for too long. After my checkup, my mum came and we went shopping together. It has been donkey years since I last went shopping with my mum. We went orchard to do my last min X'mas shopping. Yeah. Finally got the things I want. Tired. After that went home.
If you think that that's the end of my shopping spree, then you are wrong! Went to meet Joiz. Went to JP. Full of people (as usual). She had no choice but to park at the multistorey carpark at the opposite. This time round, I bought things for myself. Pampered myself for these few weeks of hardship gone thru. Hahaa.. Spent almost 300 bucks in a day. Superb man! Though I enjoyed the shopping spree, I still hope that next time, I will be carrying tons n tons of branded paper bags instead of taka/isetan/metro/not-so-branded paper bags. LOL
Asked people out today. but seems like everyone has date already! Still waiting for someone to date me... Tomorrow will be quite hectic (if everything is cfmed). Morning going to Angie's bb ger's full month celebration. Noon may be meeting Poly friends for ktv. Nite may be with ex-colleagues. Hmm... if not, I shall again rot at home.
This is not the 1st time I rot at home during X'mas eve already. Is it bcos of age? I do not really enjoy spending a rowdy night during the festive season. Crowds n crowds n crowds. Filled the whole town area / public transport. Sehz. Take public transport cannot, take pvt car lagi worse! Hai.. But if people still wanna ask me out, you are most welcome. LoL.
Spent the whole day revamping my blog. Nice? I did the blog skin myself. Trial and error so many times to get the right layout and design. Can be improved still, it will be. hehee Told mum abt Angie's bb ger, the 1st thing that she mentioned was "See la. People even got a bb already. Where's ur bf?" I replied, "U wan bb ah? Wait I really give birth to one 9mths later , u don't cry." LOL. Went to watch Perhaps Love and The Promise with my auntie today. The Promise, a flop. Don't waste money. There is one part which they had edited with such terrible skills! The change is so abrupt. But with or without the terrible editing, the show is still horrengous. hahaa Perhaps Love is better. Very similar to Moulin Rouge / Chicago. The songs are nice. Jacky Cheung is good. His voice, no fight! Takeshi Kaneshiro is the best lar! Handsome guy! His eyes..... So dazy... Zhou Xun mah.. Don't like her husky voice. Too low. But was surprised that when she sings, her voice is so different. She better sings more than talk next time. hahaaa. Ji Jin Hee, a big time extra 路人甲. Super bo liao. Next show I am going to watch will be Memoirs of a Geisha. January 2006... After the shows, I was supposed to meet Kenix to buy Xmas gift and also a wedding gift for our cousin's wedding. But super tired, so cancelled the date. Hopefully I can go and get the gifts tomorrow.
Life has been pretty slow. Have not started work yet. Stayed at home most of the time. Went to be Ger's model for her manicure on Sun. Sat there 7 hrs!!! 
What do you think? Not bad right? This was the 2nd time she did acrylic nails. Not bad her skills but she needs to speed up lots n lots. But I believe the speed will pick up gradually. After this, we went to get gift for Angelia's bb ger.
After buying the gift, I really cannot tahan. We boarded a cab home. Don't know why nowadays I have no strength to walk too long. Felt so weak. Don't dare to go out alone. Jialat leh.. How to work? All the Xmas gifts are still in the shopping malls waiting for me to buy them back!
Finally! I am back! Had been feeling terrible for the past 2 weeks... All because of a stupid burger.... Cause me to stay in hosp for almost 10days! Though this is not the 1st time admitted to hosp, this is the 1st time I stayed in A1 ward. Nothing fantastic. Just that you get to choose the meals from menu, a personal room with toilet. But you cannot get to see those young handsome housemen too often. Probably because they thought A1 patients are more difficult to handle so don't dare to touch. Hahaa
Anyway, housemen do drop by - to poke needles onie. Poor me have been suffering from endless needles poking sessions. 
Had been put on drip for several days, til my poor tiny little vein cannot tahan, swollen. Then they changed location! From right hand to left hand, from the wrist to middle part. There was this stupid doc. I must say my treshold of pain is superb. He poked my hands 3x and still couldn't find my veins, then he dug and dug and dug. Can you imagine??? I had to tell him to stop poking and find another doc to poke, if not I am not going to continue with the drip then he went to seek help. KNS leh~ Think I what? Guinea Pig ah! Next day, I complained to my own doc. Now I have become a 名副其实的药罐子.
My dear friends... I am fine now. No more fever, no more tummy pains. Having mc til next thurs. After that I will be clearing leaves... hahaaa But my mgr told me to go back to work if I feel better during my leaves then they let me clear next year. Also can lar. Ar bo, stay at home also nothing to do. I felt as if I just got a month of paid leave leh! Envy mah? LOL.
But I really gave my colleagues lots of shits to clear.. At the busiest moment of the year I went on mc. They don't know head / tail still have to follow up for me. Have to give them a big treat when I go back to work. Tenants called, I ignored. Trouble come, I ignored. Can't do anything also. Can't even handle my own body, let alone the others.
Dad kept telling me to change job. He said this job is too stressful. I am such an useless daughter. So old already still don't know how to take care of myself. Everytime, when I went to hosp, everyone in the family will suffer. Especially my mum. She had to travel to hosp daily to look after me then got to rush back home to do housework. It was damn boring in the hosp somemore. I still got med to keep me drowsy. She has to wait for me to wake up and see if I need anything. Then my dad also. Would rush to hosp frm work to see me, buy the food that I craved for when I can eat. Of cos, other than my own family, I must thank those who had visited / msged / called me during this period. I always know that I have very good 人缘. Now, I have proven it right again! hahahaa. Thanks pals! For your concern!
Ohya, change my blogskin. But Joiz said previous one was better. Gonna look for new one during the mc period. hehee
 
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