Finally I managed to do an overhaul to my pc yesterday night. Now it is as good as new! Great!
Supposed to take leave tomorrow and go M-zone with Joyce and friends. Planning to shake my head off, til my legs wobble by the end of the night. but last min my Manager gave me a call to follow her to do site recee at various locations with some big shot partners. Sianz.. All plans cxlled.
Don't know why eversince I started working, I never like to stay up late during weekdays. I sleep at 10+ 11pm, wake up at around 6.45am. Alot of people told me I sleep very early and very long. But no lor.. it is not enough for me. I still have to drag myself out of the bed. Even if I slept at 9pm, I will still have the same problem. But if I slept at 3am and woke up at 8am, I will have no problem at all. Thus, I deduce that, "It is not the number of hours you slept. It is the time you wake up."
Saw Jer today at BB interchange. Guess she must be watching Harry Potter. Senses is having bloc leave this week. Must be super sian lar him.. K lar. Coz of our unusual relationships, both Jer and I shall sacrifice one night for him. Tomorrow 8pm Walawala. Btw, my bloc leaves start from 24Dec till 02Jan. Please ask me out! hahaa
Was browsing through my Friendster's list and realised that T has uploaded a pic of him and his gf. Should be the one who was once his mistress then, gf now. Told ger that T muz have loved her alot, if not, he won't divorce and be with her. Idiot.. Still tell me he wanted a divorce so that he can concentrate with his career. A family will only add on to his burden. Rubbish... So fast got a gf. Then began to think of our past.. Hai.. I am not stupid, coz I left him. Hahaa Once again, Guys can't be trusted. *Phui*
Depressed... I was being beaten up, defeated terribly. I knew it was a solid wall and I still went ahead. Not the 1st time already but I refused to give up. Stupid or nv say die? Now, I am going to retreat. I reckon if I ever think back, I am going to feel so amused or rather ashamed of myself. Please let me have "selective memory syndrome" when I grow older. Treat myself better, I deserve better treatment.
Last Sunday, we went out to celebrate our parents' 30th year wedding anniversary. *cheers* 3 couples - my parents and 2 uncles. The 3 families and a few cousins and uncles went to Boon Lay Restaurant. Apparently, some of my cousins thought it was at Jurong East above the NTUC and took cab there. Hahaa Luckily my mum told us beforehand, if not, I would be one of the blur one. Upon reaching then realised for a sumptuous meal. 2 of the most craving dish - 鲍翅， 北京鸭. *Slurp*
The whole week has been pretty slow for me. Not much achievement in work / personal life. Hai.. am I giving myself too much pressure? I hope not. Don't like working nowadays. No pc at my new workstation. IT damn troublesome and slow.. Almost 1 month has gone but still no sight of it. Super unproductive.
Was having breakfast in the office when one of my managers commented that my phone was an idiot phone!! Kaoz~ Though she didn't mean it (I supposed so), still hurt my fragile heart.. I know that phone doesn't have much functions and its way too ex but it is not an idiot phone mah. Its the positioning mah.. Sour grapes!
Monday, I realised my friend went missing. Couldn't find him til now. Suddenly MIA. Called his hp, it was off. Called his house, his parents said not at home and cut the line. Really don't know what has happened to him. Hope he is fine.....
The only fruitful day was yesterday. Finally I learnt how to change the background of the friendster and change the blogskin of my blogger. Took me superduper long to finally do up the 2. Thanks to Jan and Joyce. If not for them, my friendster and blogger will still be as dull as me. hahaa. Give me some comments k?
Guess I am not the only one facing problems. Or rather my problems seems trivial compared to my friends... One is getting a new flat soon but she is still uncertain if he is really the ONE. Duhz... Forget about the flat then. Hai... Another one juz told me her mum is asking for a divorce. We all suspect her mum has a new bf... Poor dad of hers.. He is a good man, good husband, good daddy. Is it true that the bad one is always the more preferred one? 人善被人欺？Suddenly I feel that I am very blessed indeed. Have a happy family. :)
Does alcohol really boost one's confidence level? He called again. He was drunk again. He told me he love me again. He told me we cannot be together again. Then why you called? I asked. I told him to call me again when he wants to tell me, "I want to be with you." He said ok. You believe? I don't.
Today is just another lazy Sat for me. Went to Far East Plaza to be one of the spectators for the NexFad fashion show this afternoon. When I reached there, 1st thing I did was to find my mgr to let her know that I did support them. hahaa. Went makan with Joyce n Jeanette and went home.
Went to Espirit event last week. Saw so many mediacorp people. Alan Wu, the coolest of all. Juliann Hee has this plastic look and heard he is a gay. Elicia, petite with huge b**bs. And many more. But this was nt the best part. The bests was I saw one of the directors' son. Damn handsome.. This is what I meant by young and yandao and rich!! His office is just in my office building! hahaaa but he has got a difficult mum. Turn off. hahaaa
Was kanna bullied by tenant. Those people especially that skinny, chiko faced guy! Don't wanna make payment still wanna shift in. Think what? His house ah. Then said I very gekgao. Abit also cannot. Of course lar~ Who you think you are? I don't wish to talk to you. Cheapo tenant. All because of that stupid mgr lar. Cause me suffered so much. hopefully last fri was the last time I have to deal with them.. That chiko faced guy still dare to ask y I nv smile. I nv scold him its gd enough already lor. Luckily the other guy knew that I was very pissed off with them so he kept telling the chiko guy to stop his nonsense. But that chiko guy still continued but I just ignored him and gave him that "cant you juz shut up" kind of look. He still dared to say he will make me smile when they commence business. KNS. I will nv step into that area from 5 dec onwards!
He came on Tue night suddenly. During our conversation, he suddenly smiled and told me that was just me. what was that supposed to mean? He said I just wanna win in my conversation. He said guys also need people to give in, to pamper, to hong them. but I only wan people to hong me.. Idiot.. Go and find your mum lar. Came to make me sad only. As if I really so bad like that. But do guys really wish for that? He asked if I knew y we cannot b together. Still mad at him, I said ya, cos u dont want to be with me. Then he said til now I still think that it is he who refused to be with me. Then he sighed. Argh! True mah. I knew our differences but its him who refused to work harder to work things out mah. MAdDENnIng!
Supposed to go out with Ken and others to party as Lili was leaving on Fri morning. but it was cancelled last min. The couple quarrelled over Ken's overspending the nite before. Alamak.. Den ken juz left home without Lili. Leaving her crying in the room the whole nite. Idiot him. He told they nv talk, nv say bye when she chked in. Just got married leh... Then quarrelled cause of money issues.. Money, is the root of all evil...
Oh ya, I just cut and rebonded my hair. hee
Went to Ken's nephew's bday bbq yest. Was surprise to see the group at Boon Lay MRT. A stupid triangle relationship was going and Rick was there trying to be a peace maker. The rest was there watching show. Canot tahan man. Over a ger who is not really pretty. One of the guys was actually not bad looking! Love is blind. Superb blind man. Y cant I have such yan yu ah? hahaa
I din eat alot. Chatted with them and heard alot of qian bian wen da ti. Laff alot too. But I was not happy. We are just sitting beside each other but I dare not looking into his eyes. When I asked qns, I asked everyone except him. Nv know that it can be a torture sitting next to or looking at someone once so close to u. Guess I think too highly of myself before. After the bbq, they went to pubs. I nv go. Had strong urge to follow suit but I din. Should put everything to a stop by now. Shouldn't even have been to the bbq.
Couldn't sleep last night. Toss and turn for the whole night. Ended up with a mc for today. Useless ah?
Did Ken & Lili ROM vcd just now. Intending to give them today. Dunno if Ken is free to get the vcds.
Tired. Going to change my hairstyle. Got to give myself a new look, a new identity.
Work to forget u
Play to forget u
Sleep to forget u
Holidays, I think of u
Mondays, I think of u
Nites, I think of u
Mahjongs, I think of u
Frog porridges, I think of u
Movies, I think of u
Arcades, I think of u
Sleeps, I think of u
Wake up in the middle of the nite, Cos of u
Log in in the middle of the nite, Cos of u
Post this, Cos of u
 
Love is not about two persons gazing at each other. It is about two persons looking ahead together in the same direction.
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