y do i always feel that i m being taken advantage of? y pple wanna take advantage of me? is it bcos i m easy going/kindhearted? i hate it when pple dont appreciate what i have done. even if they appreciated it, they would take a step further and asked for more (i m not trying to advertise for pepsi here =p). i m here for u, i help u cos i care. i dont know what will happen and i dont care also. i just want to be happy. but i m not obligated to do whatever u wanted me to. u r just like K, abusing me. dont make me dislike u. u wont like the feeling, neither do i.
i tort i can be bighearted enough to forget about everything. but i realise, the past still lingers. i can forgive but i cannot forget. i m not a saint! whenever u upset me, i would think of the past. how u treated me, what u have done, u and that stupig ax-xxxn and what u have done for her. can u see the flame around me? darn~ frustrated!
whenever i think of the past, i feel sad for myself. whenever i think of the past, i feel so stupid. whenever i think of the past, i feel like yelling at you. whenever i think of the past, i feel like abandoning you. but i nv. i dont know y. i tort time will heal, i tort u will do whatever to make me feel better. u did. but do u know it takes a longer time n more effort to mend whatever damage you have done earlier.
some things are best to be left unsaid but u said it, at the worst timing somemore. though u appologised, it still hurt. nvm. whatever requests u hv, i tried to follow suit. have i ever told you how much or what i have done for you so far? i nv. but y do u have to list what you have done for me? and were they solely for me? nope. think harder. maybe we are just making use of each other during this transition period. i m fine. but dont make it a point to prove that u have done enough to make up for what i have done for u. cos i dont care. cos i believe u can nv win me. dont waste your time.
dont always wait until u think i m angry or upset with you then u come and make me happy. i dont need someone who will make me happy only after upsetting me. i wan someone who can make me happier when i m happy. i dont wan someone whom i m readily to 共患难 with but hesitate when asked if wanna 共富贵 with me. who wants? though u dont mean it, its too late lor.
y do i still bother abt u when i myself is already so exhuasted? y do i still bother how u treat me when i already have lots of concerns from others? u r not as impt as u think. maybe u still are but remember things will fade, pple do change. one day when i think enough is enough and that's it.
now i m thinking of the past, y? cos u upset me. tmd~ u make me so ugly. bloody nincompoop
 
Love is not about two persons gazing at each other. It is about two persons looking ahead together in the same direction.
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