yest my bro asked me and my mum how we find his gf. quiet, demure, tall, ger-nxt-door. my mum, obviously is pleased with her lar, told him this, "你喜欢就好。" kns.
for all my past r/s, never for once she said this to me. told her this. she said cause of the working hours of R, that's y. bs. its because he doesnt have a stable career lar. asked her if my bf is a professional who has to work night shift or go overseas to work, would she mind? of course not.
this is how realistic one can be, including me.
he asked me if i would still find him as my bf if given a chance. i said no, not now at least. no becos i had given him the chance, i tried but he refused. after so much things have happened, i become stronger, yet he is still the same him. nothing has changed. if we were to be together, the same old things will still happen. we will still be quarrelling over the same old issues. maybe not so much, cause kan kai le. but still we have no common goal. would rather find someone new.
yest, again, i said something that bruised his ego, stabbed right onto the sore spot. was very sorry but i have no choice. i dont like him being such a weakling, hiding behind the wall. he has so many good points, strong points. but dare not step out of his comfort zone. even though the whole zone is a swamp. i have tried using other methods like coming up with solutions but he doesnt want to try at least a bit. rejected my ideas. so tired.. in the end i shot him with all the hurting facts, forcing him to face the reality. my words hurt him. i became the bad person once again. guys, can teach me how to bring across truthful-yet-hurting facts without hurting the other party???
3 persons told me come out with business plans / ideas during my mc. how bad right? all guys somemore! kns. i m sick leh! so bad. talk about entrepreneurship, being daring, adventurous, keeping an openmind. *yawn* i still have my own ambition. my ultimate ambition is to be a tai tai, not housewife leh (big enuff mah lolx)
so what if i dont like to have my own business? i admit that i am not a businessminded person. everyone knows. i only wish to have a stable job which i love. but that doesnt mean that i am not careerminded. i want to climb up the stairs and reach the top management level. money is not everything to me. as long as i have enuff to spend, i am contented. love what you do is more impt. its the job satisfaction, not the money factor.
but i am still keeping my option open. one day, may be i will want to be my own boss leh? who knows.
 
Love is not about two persons gazing at each other. It is about two persons looking ahead together in the same direction.
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