alot, i mean really alot of people are quitting now. guess the quitting wind blowing now. damn i muz really buck up man!
yest, or rather this morning i received a call. guess who? its him. the 1st thing i asked was: did you drink? lolx. he said no. he said he called to see how i was. told him he could just find out from K. he said K's word cannot be trusted. the most only 30%. then believe 30% will do. dont have to call me. then asked me if i know the reason behind our breakup. i asked him was it impt? since we r no longer together, no point. then he told me its becos of communication prob. i told him no, its becos we didnt try hard enough. i still believe love conquers all.
after that he told me how he has been the past few mths. he had an ah lian gf for abt 1 mth, then 3 weeks later another gf whom i happened to know as well. his colleague. i asked him y let me know all these. he said no reason, just wanna let me know, dont want to lie. in the 1st place, i didnt even ask for it. he asked me to get on with my life. i did. who was the one kept calling? its him ok.. one call a month. for what? shi wei mah? who cant get over who now?
he said he want to see the real me, dont become another one cos of the r/s. i asked him what does he mean by the real me? people do change over time. i changed, that doesnt mean it is not me. just that i have changed. nothing wrong.
i asked him what was his motive for calling? when he called, did he think beforehand? do i want to hear from him? i said he just want to fulfil his desire/intent, hear from me and to find out how i am.
silently i was thinking this: "you are just hoping i m doing well and will not hate you anymore so that you can live happily everafter. F U!"
he told me he really hope to be friends with me. he said i will be a gd wife, gd gf, gd friend. so? it doesnt concern him anyway. i told him next time whenever he is bored and feels like talking, call his gf or friends, dont call me again. ya i threw him that sentence.
what did he really want from me? utterly disappointed with him...
i sms him this: i dun think my friends would ever treat me the way you treated me when i was in hosp. you may think its fine with you. but not with me. when i think i can get over this, maybe then we can be friends.