a colleague just found a job of her passion and her mgr asked me if i m interested to go over. hers is a&p retail which was what i wanted all along. i did ask for transfer initially but was kanna bombed by my am that i didnt go throug h the proper procedures. was it my fault? no one told me what happened, no official memo or meetings. what i gathered was hearsay. how could u blame me for not going through the proper channels? i didnt go and see the sm purposely. it just so happen that we were having meeting then. hai.. nvm. now, the mgr wanna me to go over but refused to talk to my mgr. he wanted to tell them instead. he was afraid that if he was to tell them, it will spoil the r/s. darn~ if i go and tell them, that means i will be spoiling the r/s right? siao~ guess he is just another "i protect myself 1st" kind of mgr.
nvtheless, since i have decided to leave the place, i might as well be an obedient staff and do my own job without creating more troubles.
last sat, my sm called me in the morning. duhz.. i was having my beauty sleep leh. at 0930hr. can you feel my agony and depressed feelings? spoilt my mood. no mood to sleep, no mood to go out. i spent the whole day sleeping. yeah, pig i know. i thought only sleep can let me forget everything. but i was wrong. i had nitemares! damn! dreamt about work, event spaces, pushcarts, arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!! can you imagine??????????? i need some anti depressant, anyone has?
so long nv hear from joiz already. muz be having great time there. got any mer-man or yan yu? hee
yesterday i met up with jan, alex & cyn. went to partyworld ktv. had a gd time with them. sheryl was supposed to meet us if she could make it. apparently, she couldnt lar, cos she didnt turn up. alex was as usual suaning me without fail. kept telling me i m not getting any younger, muz get marry soon. idiot leh.. he is only 1 yr younger mah, talk so much. he asked about r and i, if the reason for our breakup was we shared the same gf. haahaa. idiot~
cyn brought her digicam. her digicam was 8mega pixels with funny functions! u can have different combinations of the pics, slimming effect, fattening effect, beautifying effect, blah blah blah. was exploring her cam throughout. lol. going to get a new cam soon! haa
jan & i was the last to go. she let me drove her car. it has been almost 1 yr that i last drove a car. k lar, since it was already midnight, not much cars around. but there was this pickup that purposely drove next to us and actually turned his head to look at us! duhz~ i know i was abit slow and clumsy lar but i seldom drive leh. muz u actually do this kind of action??? argh~ dont let me see u again. confirm cut your lane all the way. *hmpf*
going to meet our anchor tenant later with my mgr and sm. they are going to complain about me? i dont know, i have kept my mgr posted what i have been doing. she nv update me. nothing i can do.. lets c what will happen later. keep my fingers cross.
it was a hectic day indeed. had 2 interviews. 1 from the big media org and another from the 2nd biggest communications org. too many hipcups in the morning. rushed to take photos for the interviews, photocopied my certs and so on. i know i know.. i should have gotten all these way before. but u know me. haa~ when i was on my way to the media org, i was organising my certs and i realised the guy forgot to zap my transcript!!
me: "UNCLE, U-TURN!!"
driver: "HUH?!?!"
lol.
in the end i went to zap the transcripts somewhere else. the uncle waited for me and vrroooom me to my destination.
when i reached there, saw around 8 gers. all gers mind u. all coming for the promotions executive position. sweat. went in the boardroom for the written test. it was in chinese. grasp! nvm. whats worse? i had to write in essay form! darn~ it had been donkey years ago since i last used chinese to write anything! tried my best to write whatever that came to my mind. then suddenly, suck~ how to write that word?? luckily i got a nokia hp, not the old samsung hp. if not, i confirmed die. thanks nokia~ lol. used the dictionary for help. haa the test took us 2 hours.
then the hr lady came and said the interview would have to be postponed 1/2 hr later! that means it would be 2.30pm. argh! my next interview was supposed to be 3.30pm! how to rush?? i called the other org to postpone my interview. but the bad hr said cannot. only earlier no later. duhz.. luckily a xc came to my rescue. he helped me to book a cab in advance. so immediately after my interview i ran to the cab and went to the next round.
anyway, the interview was a disaster also. i was being interviewed by 5 people u know! 5 leh~ was so gan chiong lor~ i pi li pa la pi li pa la rushed thru my speech to a point they actually asked me to relax. haa. what funny was, they asked me if i would like to self intro in mandarin or english, i told them both. haa~ i was thinking, how am i going to say i am an advertising and promotions officer in mandarin. so i decided both languages were the best option. anyway, i din think i fare well this time round. cos they said they feel my chinese should be much better last time upon seeing my results. of cos lar, that was sec 4 results my dear..
the next interview was also a bad one. guessed they wanted someone with more marcom experience than one with event mgt experience. out also i supposed.
hai... when can i ever leave this shitty place??
after 2 weeks of sending & pending, finally i have got replies. going for interviews on tue. actually have 2 interviews on tue. hee. one after another. both are big organizations. hopefully both will want me then i can be the chooser, not the begger. lol but sad to say, bloomberg rejected me!!! duhz... they 'have eyes don't know orh yi orh' lol. nvm. i m still very happy, excited, thrilled~~~ hahaaa will i be star stuck or carrying an orange umbrella walking down the streets? lol. think too much. wahhaaa i sotz already. pardon me. :D
promised rama on wed to go drinking yest. actually was just kidding then. didnt want to go drinking on wed nite, thats y i mentioned yest. thought he might just dismiss the idea. but i was wrong. he called E and got the rest of the ex colls out as well. no choice.. waited for E in the office then we walked to ms. it was like ghost town when we reached there. joined the gang at around 8.30pm at newsroom bar. nothing much to do initially, so i joined E & LW in the arcade game. then we proceded to our sissors paper stone, five ten & drinking sessions. can you imagine, within 1 hr, the 6 of us finished a bottle of chivas. total they opened 3bots i think.. duhz.. rama even made friends with the mgr and he promised to give us memberships. he said he would call and fax us the application forms. inshaala~
anyway, i didnt stay thru out cos i have to work today. after the 3rd bot came, i told them i had to leave. initially they refused to let me go but i still got my way out. poor E, they said she had no reason to leave so they made her stay thru out.
was chatting with godpa and he asked me if i finished reading those comics he brought to me when i was in hosp. i told him i nv finished but i did read some. i lied. arrghh~ bad ger. lol shhhhhhhhhhh........ he said that was the 1st time he ever did to someone and he really prayed for me when i was in hosp. not even for his closed ones. so touched~ shall find him a gd wife next time! hee
thought it was really 邪门. whenever someone mentioned abt him to me, that very day, i would receive calls from him. previously when kel told me abt him & the ex broke off, he called. yest, when E & godpa asked me abt him, he called again. he called my room. saw his no on the caller id when i got home. thought i drank too much and was seeing things. damned it. spoil my life again...
Belated Happy V-Day~
hows everyone's v-day? mine was sad.... y? cos senses nv give anything. hai... jer, did u receive anything from him? wonder if J received any.. lol
was just telling my colleagues i saw a plump lady holding a big bouquet of roses. duhz.. y no one sent me har? then 1 of them said, maybe she bought it herself. she must be crazy to do such thing on a vday. ex lor~ for me, i rather buy a bear. cheaper. haaha.
nv like to go out on v-day, unless i have a bf. everywhere u go, u see couples. makes me green with envy only. :p the only place u can find companion is the cyberworld. thats y i logged in net, once i got home. made me realise, i m not alone. wahaahaa
were talking to my colleague about the list of advertisements we have for our projects. then told her, we should also do one for ourselves:"Tai Tai Wannabes Available. Highly educated / sweet & demure / sophistiscated & pretty, you name it, we have it. For more info, please contact XXX-XXXX"
hahaaa~ we worked too hard. very hard. hence, abit cranky nowadays.
just realised i have so much things pending. a lot of my licence agreements are going to be expired soon. havent talked to them abit the renewal. no mood. whenever i told prospects the rates, they said the rates were too high. if i were to tell the old tenants, they confirm faint! but what to do. everyone is talking about increasing rentals. no one dares to reduce. feedback to my mgr, she said no. hai.. got to find comparables to justify the reduction.
received a call from an agency today. finally leh. though its an agency, its better than none. hope tomorrow will be better. bloomberg~ pls call me. i like u better. lol. i love ur pantry most.
i volunteered to take part in our loyalty card programme committee. u must be thinking since i m leaving, y bother. just wanna learn more. moreover, i enjoy doing promotions & marcomm stuff. it will also add value to me, more things to write in my resume. hee.
met up with an event organiser just now. he was in charge of the current shaw bazaar. hopefully he will deliver what he said. cant afford to make another mistake. will cause me my reputation & job, though job wise is not as impt now. lol.
at my old office now. love here. cozier. my little corner. waiting for my ex colleagues. we are going to amara hotel to have thai food. :) yeah~
but i nv sent any until cny eve. something happened. tat tenant called me!! arghh! cny eve leh~~ i smsed my mgr & asked her to settle. sent my 1st resume on cny eve. this is not the worst. on cny day2, my colleague called! darn~ cny leh... cant u just let me off??? *teh* i pressed on the silent button & went back to my sleep. swore to myself i would nv listen to any colleagues' / tenants' calls during the holidays. yoohooo~ updates updatez updatex! Happy HappY BeLated ChinEse New YEAr~~ lolyaya.. i can hear those grumblings. shall update once n for all if possible. dun mind if this blog gets abit too lengthy. ---------------------------- on the day before CNY eve, i was on the verge of tendering. was so upset with my AM, with the whole system... so down that i called my mum in the middle of my work and asked her if i could tender right after cny. guessed my tone must be darn serious & sad. she said ok after a few sec of silence which i took it as 'stunned' timing. haa immediately after i reached home, i started to look thru the papers, internet. edited my cover letter & resume. phew~ so long nv did those already. i knew i was bad. but no choice. i m really tired. sorry L.. too bad u got me as a colleague. this wont be long, i promise. lol thru' out the whole cny, everyone was telling me not to tender before i get a job. if not, no market value, no demand. how sad... the whole cny mah...D-E-P-R-E-S-S-I-N-Gangbao got lesser, value got lesser, fun got lesser, even the food got lesser! my mum din even prepare bakgua~ can u imagine????? so what i did was i ate as much as i could when i was at my uncle's place. hee monkey is really suay i think. din win = lost. lost $70 i think. but ok lar. everyone's happy. for those who gave me angbaos, wished me gd health & gd career. i told them, nono just wish me get a golden tortise soon. lol. went to kbox on day1 nite. wah~ $200 for 5 pax from 12.30am to 4am. ex ex... ----------------------------------------- asked my mum this: given 2 choices - 1 with similar education, better career prospect but owe the bank tonnes of $ vs 1 with lower education, stable career but not as gd as the former, nv owe $. qns: who will she choose? ans: she chose the former. she said,"gd edu & gd career means later part of the life u can enjoy. with the latter, u will have to slog forever." duhz... tort she would choose the latter leh. cos former owes $! her FAV. hee. den in a very serious manner, she asked me, "how old is he? doing what now?" hahaaa in very serious tone, i ans, "not me. i wanna be taitai remember?" den i reminded her, i wanted a yandao rich bf cos all guys sux. senses, u dont belong to that category. dont worry. haahaa ------------------------------------- was reading xiaxue's blog n she mentioned that she has another private blog which she poured her heart out. den i remembered i used to have 1 private blog too. no one knew. only me. i had that when i was with T. private yet open.. private because i nv mentioned to anyone & no one knew its me. open because everyone, anyone could read. anyway, that blog was used to vent my frustrations & woes.*sobs* *sobs* other then blogs, i have another one. its my diary. had a habit of keeping an diary since sec. but it suffered similar fate of my blogs. nv update it constantly. but i make it a pt to write in my diary whenever i have a new r/s. usually its from day 1 to the final day. unless u knew 'silent break' lol. dont know where to stop. just stopped when i felt nothing to update. but as for my last r/s, i stopped when i found myself repeating similar contents... nothing much happened today. he was bz working as usual. same old sat / sun. dreaded weekends...quarrelled again... even for quarrels, the issues were same! so much so that i din feel like writing my diary. the purpose of keeping diary is to keep all the memorable memories, be it good or bad. even if its bad, its sweet to read about the making up after the row. but when there were too many bad memories, then no point.. the more i write, the sadder i become, later become numb. this is not the original idea of having a diary. ----------------------------------------------- met up with Jan that day. supposed to give her her xmas gift but i forgot to bring. getting old... nvm. heard all her rendevous & updates & updated her with mine too. of cos mine was not as flowery / fantastic / colourful / bombastic as hers lar. maybe bcos all those happened quite some time ago. the impact was not as deep as before. & also after repeating umpteem times, i sort of tired / lazy to repeat them. i cut out the meaty part & left the skins & bones. (ya just like me lol) she told me, i should keep my option opens. dont shut the potentials out. be like her. guys will nv treasure gers unless they feel the threat/they realise they were wrong once. true. i know that, i m still keeping my option open, until i bcome a taitai! RESOLUTION FOR THE DOGGY YEAR:TAI TAI 2006
 
Love is not about two persons gazing at each other. It is about two persons looking ahead together in the same direction.
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