yesterday 2am
phone: *ring* *ring* *ring*
me: *dreaming*
phone: *ring* *ring* *ring*
me: *still dreaming* but subconsciously i thought, 6.30am already? kaoz... must be mum, nvm alarm not yet ring
phone: *ring* *ring* *ring*
me: *suddenly wide awake n pick up the call* wey.....
phone: hello, u are very tired ah?
me: *puzzled* who are u?
phone: me, r**k
was surprised to hear from him. asked him y he called. he said cos he was just around my area so thought of calling me. *bullshit* i asked him for what. then he asked how was i getting on and hows my sickness... but later i realised all these were just bullshits. he wanna know if i hated him. K told him i hate him. of cos, being a pro-pr/high eq/softhearted person, i told him no lar. but i did tell him i was just angry with him for the way he treated me when i was in hosp.
his reply: "so that you can forget about me"
ya right. thank you very much leh. then i told him, "so u know my reply now - i dont hate u. anything else?"
he said nothing & asked if i have anything to tell him.
yest evening, i met up with kel n yq. kel told me r & the ahlian gf no more liao. so i asked him, if he has a gf. he told me no. i said i heard he has one. he said failed combination. no more liao.
ya i tort so also. but really felt like scolding him for treating me like tat for ah lian. but i ctrl... i said bye bye n hang up.
after tat, i had a sleepless nite. darn it......
learnt something yest.
LESSON 1
a little advice to all. dun ever go for cheap stuff. y?EVIDENCEbefor
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bought this pair of sandals with Joiz at JP. thought we got some great stuff at real low price - $9.90 lor.. but that was what happened after the 3rd time i wore them. kaoz~ imagine! i was on my way from honglim food complex to fesq! there were 2 straps. initially 1 snapped while i was walking from csq to chinatown pt. den from honglim to fesq, the other gave way as well!! luckily i had a pair of shoes at fesq office. if not, die ah~ how to walk?? so paiseh while waiting for my colleague to come to my rescue. LESSON 2dont ever go shopping alone. actually went orch with kit, my colleague, to look for a clothing she saw at Forever21 but couldn't find anything. ended up, i got myself a shirt. nvm. went to eat. while waiting for the food, i smsed almost the whole world if there is anyone who wanna do shopping at orch. but everyone seemed to be very busy. hmm.. seems like i m the only one without life. hahaa anyway, ended spending $300 on the shoes, clothings n accessories. gosh! then it started to rain. took cab home. very sad after spending the $300. suddenly i thought, jialat.. how can i go taiwan at this rate?? must win more money during cny now. lol. ohya, my house will be celebrating cny on 年初三. wanna come?? senses, make this a gathering bah. den shift mine to this mth. so that i dont have to org later. lol.think my spending thingy caused me too much stress. slept at around 11.30pm yest. den slept thruout the whole afternoon today. dreamt abt the fate of the money i spent. $$$$. lol.
took leave today. but still i woke up at 0730hrs to have my breakfast. after that, read some mags and got hook in front of the pc. revamped the blog.
i knew i still have to face it. i still have to call the vendor. even though the am said she will call but no lor. say only. said others only want the easy way out. she herself also mah. just that she pushed everything to me. even the vendor said y she only speak to him when trying to close the deal, now got problem all pass to me. yalor. i wondered y also. don't ever let me climb on top of her. i will let her have the taste of her own medicine also.
my own mgr smsed me to compliment on the yest's nite event. that's very nice of her. but hai.. i still felt so useless. everything is down. even though i m on leave, i m not happy. not at all. cannot gamble this cny, confirm lose money. so sad. so suay. how to win????
going to take leave next week also. don't care.
ohya, i m planning to go taiwan during the gd fri week, who wanna go? jer, interested?? hehee can intro some nice places/cheap hotels/cool guy places?
heard the news? my coy just had a successful bid. the plot of land at somerset. hai... also don't what they are thinking of. stuck in the middle of nowhere, i think it is going to be inbetween some competitors again. cat fight coming up soon~
my bazaar guy hang up my phone yest. was so paiseh.. what can i say? he is actually a very obliging person. whatever i said, he tried his best to follow suit. just becos of a piece small area, things turned sour. don't think i really suit to be in this line or be a sales person. i don't mind giving him the space. its ok mah.. not that he nv pay, he paid alot already. so what if he earns alot, we also do earn alot already mah. y must we b so demanding? though he kept using the bigshot name, he still comply to us. the head thinks that it is very easy to handle this people. of cos, they r not the one facing the bullets. what they do is sit behind the walls and shout at u thru the walkie talkie, do this do that.
the tea chapter guy smsed to 'scold' me also. is it my fault that the mgr does not wish to release the deposit? y me? i nv receive ur email also my fault? not happy? just leave lor. i m more than happy. i fwd the sms to that mgr and she said she will handle them. ya, make sure u do.
later is the agents' nite. so many big shots not around. today is a big day for the coy. announcement for the working partnership between us and p***o for central retail. there will be press conference for that. so big shots all went there. us, the small flys, go and handle the agents.
going to take leave tomorrow. rest well. shop well. rot well.
sat is going to be another tough day. treasure hunt day. thought after that can just go home. but no, going to pp to check out the tentage again. ya again. y is my adhoc space always giving me so much trouble??????? argh....
i still hate u alot. y make me hate u? bastard. jerk.
i want a break, i need a break. i need to think wat i really want in life. i need help. i need strength. some enlightenings. i need hugs. i need pats. i need encouragement. i want to go back to school. i feel like crying....
i thought i can bear with it, i thought it is over, i thought i am strong and i thought i wont cry....
have been toying with the thought. to go or not to go. follow ur heart or ur brain. go for dream or reality.
if only life is like a dream. everyday u wake up, it is a brandnew start. if only...
my mind is just like the weather now. so blue so groomy...
i hate u
didnt really feel like working on mon. was lazing in my bed, deliberating... "To go or not to go"
after much internal arguments, decided to go for work. though i woke up late, was surprisingly early when i reached the office! okok, i reached around 0840hrs lar. 5mins earlier. but this is a rare case leh~ lol usually i reach ON D DOT.., hmmm maybe late by a few sec la. *lol*
my sr mgr was sick! down with bad flu & cough. only the 2 of us were in that office. seeing the way she coughed and sniffed, i asked her to c a doc. apparently, she did but due to her super hectic / nonsensical schedules of meetings, she couldn't use her mc. moreover, 1 mgr went hols, the other 1 has been on mc since 2 weeks ago. so talked about nobody is indispensible. not in this case man. ohya, i really think that the building's ventilation is super poor. so many people got sick.
talking about being sick. yeah, i am down with fever again. since yesterday evening. holy shit! hols leh~ sick. but the rainy day did help to soothe out the frustration abit. hahaa i know i m bad! still remember on ny eve, when i was with joiz & jl at heeren, i told them if we were to go home early, pray hard it rained! BIG DOWNPOUR! hahaa.
but the rain caused me lotsa trouble as well. my bazaar vendor was complaining. his tentage uses too much electricity and keeps causing the power to trip. den our technician had to go down and reset the thingy. it happened not just once or twice, it happens many many many many many many many many times!!!! it seemed like he almost quarrel with my engineering exe & property exe over the issue. he said we nv supply him with enough voltage, my exes told me we had enough but his electrician, dont know from which donkey coy, did not do a good job or one of the appliances was spoilt. kaoz... asked my exe if we could draw any line from the building itself, he said we shd not be compliance to all these shits and the voltage we gave was more than enough.
my vendor told me this,
"its cos of u. one call from u, i took up this place without having any vendors. now, it is raining everyday. den ur people is so difficult to work with. i dont wan to quarrel with them. if really cannot solve the problems, i will just leave. i lose abit of money nvm. i will ask for refund. the most i go over to d other building to do. there, indoor, dont have to care abt rain / shine. i can just let Ms XX know and she will let me have that place. y i make myself so bz? i have alot of things to do leh. i cannot always stay here to solve this kind of prob leh. blah blah blah."
always use some big shot to 'threaten' me. what can i say? hmm ok huh issit ermmm ......
very useless hor? cos of this, i had a nitemare, should be daymare cos i was taking a nap. i dreamt that the vendor really packed and go! the whole area was empty!!! at the very sight of the empty space, i woke up. ARGH~!~
but before this, i had another dream. i dreamt of him. of all people, of all time. i dreamt that he came back to look for me. and the useless me, actually took him back. duhz.. but it was just a dream. he is in some BIG FAT UGLY AHLIAN's arms now. *booooed*
kaoz... i hate to do all these man.. operational things also want me to settle. so tired.. freaky tired now. rain also my prob, no power also my prob, look not nice also my prob, simi sai also my prob. argh.....
suppose to b a new year, great year ahead one leh. y m i still so down??? hmm... maybe got to wait for the doggy to take over. chicken is a jinx - chicken pox, bird flu, and not to forget i admitted cos of chicken burger!!! hate the birdies. shit.. just took fried chicken wings. hahahaa
apparently things didn't go according to my plans. i didn't go home on time that day. supposed to work on sat but couldn't get up as i was singing til 3am the day bfore. reached home at 4am. thought i m a superwoman, still bragged to kel n yq that i confirmed can work the next day. hahaa.
nvtheless, was kenna waken up by peg's sms. spoilt the plan again. someone 'up' there didn't like the tentage my vendor had and wanted us to do something abt it. duhz.. no head no tail, how to solve the prob? wat if i added something, he doesnt like again? or i change the look, he complains again? also don't know wat he wants. hai.. boss ah boss, pls pls spare me from your mind game leh... i m just a 打工仔. not your worm, not u, i don't know how to read your mind. most impt of all, i hv nv even spoken to u before~ how the hell i know what u want???
sometimes, just couldn't stand all these top mgt people n office politics leh. they sit down there, just mumble a few words and the whole world will become chaotic. if according to his wish, den u can rest in peace for that moment. if not, continue to live in panic bah.
was damn angry yest. a colleague called to complain. saying why is she the busiest one when it is an A&P event. kaoz~ u r from the estate mgt leh. u r the PE for that building. of cos u should be the one doing the M&E and logistics work. if not, coy pay u for what? A&P has to plan events/promotions, get vendors/tenants, coordinate everything before the actual thing gets started. u expect me to go and order your men to clean the area, on the lights and draw electrical power for my vendors? thats ur job man. its operational. WAKE UP YOUR IDEA! going to drop an email to her and her mgr tmr.
got to handle the top exe and also got to pacify the middle level. ARGH~!~ if only i m a taitai now...... sad... sadder... saddest....
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anyway, went out wif ro & jy yest. they actually came to orchard to look for me cos i had to stay thru out to ensure the bazaar was prob-free. thx gers. finally passed jy her xmas gift. got hers and ro's gifts also. ro was complaining abt her gift for me. i actually asked for a clock. initially she refused to get for me. but i kept insisting so she gave in. she said the nxt day after she got me the clock, i went into hosp. damned 邪. she told me no more next time. hahaa in the end, i gave her 2ocents for the clock. hee so i got a clock at 20cents. damn cheap hor? LOL
went to the lounge at hyatt. forgot the name already. not bad. a nice place to sit down and chit chat. not in a big group lar. too rowdy will kenna chase out. will get my future date to bring me there again. ohya, got dresscode for guys. no berms / shorts. but they will lend u draw string pants. so not to worry. hehee but for flipflops mah.. i m not too sure. nxt time if we r going to have a small grp of poly gathering with chris down there, pls remind him to jeans n shoes. cant stand his rich-man attire. but i also realise only rich man kids wear berms / shorts + slippers to orchard rd. rich wanna tone down, poor wanna tone up (for guys only). gers, rich / poor, all wanna dress nice nice, even if its short, will also look stylish. unlike guys.
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rained the whole day. very lazy. but tort i have to do something for the upcoming cny! i have not gotten any new apparels / accesories and so on. so the 1st step, i did something which i always enjoy. guess wat?
not going to tell u. guess bah. will reveal the ans tomorrow. LOL. CIAOZ~~
have not been going home on time these few days. slept quite late oso. this is bad. going to change this habit!
so much things to do, as usual. stress starts to sip in as well. no good no good. hai... need to source to prospects, do pr, find out this and that, monitor them, handle complaints, chase payment, cheque lost? got to ask the tenant to reissue, rectify problems. kns leh. where got so much time lar. 1 colleague is leaving soon. more work to come, i suppose.
going to handle over whatever that is not mine to others. dont want to be so nice to people again. no point.
so today, go home early.
GOAL FOR THE DAY:
LEAVE ON DOT
1st day of work. got alot of renewals not done. jialat. my pushcart list is going to be ugly. but still i was too tired? preoccupied? to follow up. sian. hai... cannot man. 1st day leh. WAKE UP!
went to remove the acrylic nails today after work. finally. so long nv see my own finger nails already. poor thing. Breathe as much as u can bah~ Shall not do another acrylic nails again. lol. Really appreciate shorter nails now after doing the acrylic nails. So cumblesome. cannot pick up coins, open can drinks, blah blah blah
was telling ger abt him and his newfound love. told her kel's description of the gf. u know what she said?
"maybe kel dont like ah lian leh. that's y he said she not gd looking."
DING DING DING!!! duhz... y must u b so blant lar~ ger is always like that. nv give me any face. make me so sad after hearing that. but i still choose to have selective listening, selective memory.
"she is ah lian, she is ugly. he has no taste. he has degraded."
lol. felt happier now. :)))))))))))))))
oh ya, who has lobang for new hp? i wanna buy nokia 7370 & motorola v3 / nokia 6111. actually intending to get 7370 for my dad only. his 8800 is now under my possession. so it is only fair for me to get him a new one. when my mum heard that, she immediately complained that i did not give her xtra money or buy her anything after getting bonus. duhz... the other day went to shop with her, did ask her which phone she liked & i will get for her. she was the one who din want. now, complained. somemore in front of my relatives. kns leh... woman *shake head*
went to fes yest noon to meet my fleamart agent, 陈太. she bought me 1/2 dozen of chicken essence. so nice of her. but i was going out after tat. hence i left the chicken essence in the mgt office. hee it was like luv @ 1st sight. hahaa wanna buy it immediately but suddenly remembered, my colleague, SC, she has the card for urs. endure... den wondered if robinson has urs as well, cos i hv vouchers for robinson. but no. so now got to depend on sc. but ex leh... $66.90 before discount. after discount is also like $54 lor... sianz... but nice leh. especially on me. hahaa did not buy anything in the end. den we left for mzone. not a bad place cos i enjoyed dancing. long time nv dance already... don't really like the chinese band lar. but luckily they have techno songs! lol. the crowd started to come in around11pm. people were startng to have their fun. *spray* *spray* *spray* this is the 1st time i countdown in a pub. usually was with a group of friends at the chalet / house / along the roadside. hehee intended to go and find kel n yq earlier but the techno songs made me stayed for another 15mins more at least. hehee left for Central ktv at Hongkong St. according to kel, central & mzone were by the same boss. don't know real or not. kenix was supposed to meet us but she put plane. told yq cos there was no diamond tortise around, she is not interested. saw dq's gf. looked dao leh. when dq introduced us to her, she just stared at me. so rude. but being the nicer one, i said hi and waved at her. den she returned a very polite hello to me. duhz.. time to chg gf lar. i m definitely much better den her man. :p we left the place ard 3am. no luck for cabby. on our way to the coffeeshop at bq, the super high cum hilarious yq was greeting everyone who walked / drove passed him happy ny. not onie that, he even went to tease a ger and her bf was just in front of her lor. siao eh~ even kel couldnt tahan him. after ard 1/2hr, who came to our rescue? Anthony!! apparently, that yq called him and woke him up! n he really came all the way from woodlands to drive us home. lucky thing, everyone stays in the west. reached home around 5am. super tired. concuss. ============================================== everyone was asking what i have achieved in 2005 & if i have new year resolution for 2006. nv really thought of these. now i shall list one by one (from what i can remember :) 2005 1. found a job 6. attended the most no of weddings 7. did acrylic nails 8. cut away my long hair 9. cried / smiled / laffed the most 10. felt heartache 11. went to thai disco pub 12. went to canto disco pub 2006 1. drink lotsa water, lesser fibre 2. find a golden tortise - taitai 2006 3. get phones for pa & ma 4. love my family even more 5. find a new job 6. enrol in a design course 7. go for holidays 8. let go of him...
met mabel for lunch. had korean food. the food is good, very authentic. the ginseng chicken soup was fabulous. we also had bq chicken & spicy cold noodle. Rate: 8/10. hv not met up with mabel since may i think. she was my best buddy in sim. were updated each other's life, ups and downs. talked craps during the meal. den we decided to head for coffee. went to fullerton. apparently they were preparing for a countdown party. the lounges were closed! no choice, we went to coffee club to drink. before we could really enjoy the coffee, both of us had to rush off for our next appointment!
we aparted at the mrt station, where she headed to tampines n i headed towards orchard. met up with joiz & jl at heeren. they had their dinner at nydc but i was too full to continue anything further. after tat, time was still young. we decided to do some window shopping. saw a pair of pinky shoes at urs. 
 
Love is not about two persons gazing at each other. It is about two persons looking ahead together in the same direction.
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