Life

puzzled....

2007-01-04T13:34:00.000+08:00

A boy said this to a ger: I feel that you are treating me very good. Don’t treat me so good.
Ger: what’s wrong with treating you good?
Boy: nothing wrong but just felt that you are too good to me.
Ger: then what do you want me to do? Change? change to what?
Boy: I don’t know….
Ger: then i also don’t know.

Something is wrong. Somewhere somehow. I don’t know. please enlighten me…

spoil-er of the month - i hate workaholic, i hate u

2006-12-17T00:32:00.000+08:00

how would u feel if u realised your plan has been spoilt, ur dreams have been shattered? 1st its genting, den now even the holidays are spoilt.

its fine with me to take unpaid to go tour with you, even if its just genting. its fine with me to find out its a coy trip. but its not so fine with me to know that the trip is a pure biz trip n he will be working the whole trip lor. who wants to spend more than $600 just for a genting trip n u got to play alone lor. its so shit lor.

its fine with me when he told me we have to spend the xmas eve at his coy cos they have a xmas party. but its not fine when we have to do the same for new year eve! damn it! might as well stay n live at the coy lar.

i simply cannot understand y these pple enjoy staying in coy so much. so much life they have. actually i wasnt very happy when i knew that we have to spend xmas eve with his colleagues. but i tort, ok lor. compromise abit bah. i can understand they will need some bonding sessions and this is a gd chance for them to do bonding actually. but who needs to do bonding every week lar.

can someone enlightening me on this? y shd i keep my cool? if i feel indifference on whether we are spending time during these festive seasons, will he be happier? if i really feel indifference, i seriously think that no point we continue the path le. perhaps he really thinks so. perhaps i m the only one thinking that its frustrating. perhaps n i really think so.... give me a reason, anyone pls.........

sometimes these just make me feel so dishearted...

seminar

2006-11-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

received this when i was at my door step just now, "Hi D*****, congratulations 4 a very successful evening. Tk u very much and sleep well 2nite." :)

we had a seminar co-organised by an American council. it was a very last min decision to have the seminar and we have like abt 1 week to look for venue, speakers and do marketing for the seminar. was like bz doing this and that and finally the seminar was done and ended very successfully. the guests were happy, the partners were happy as well. so we are oso very happy. though very tired, very happy indeed. especially when someone recognised your hardwork. good team effort i should say.

after today will be my nightmare....... have been receiving overwhelming response for the fateful day. now f&b problems.. i do not have enough food for the day. shitz...... tmr morning wil be having a very morning meeting with my boss and colleagues to further discuss this issue. this is one of the most important event for us so can only succeed and no failure. *stress*

hope everything will be a-ok. X my fingers.

silly grin :D

2006-11-13T22:52:00.000+08:00

i m a truly fortunate and loved person. my parents went taiwan on sat with other relatives. when they reached taiwan, mum called and told me that she purchased a SIA briefcase for me cos i mentioned to her once that i need one. but SIA... hmm... wonder if they wud have a big big aeroplane printed on the bag. hahaa. wonder what's next.... hehee got to till sunday. till then~

recently i have been quite grumpy towards him. y? hai.. same old reason. but i tried very hard not to grumble already but i couldnt conceal my disappointment each time. but nvm, today i got a big surprise from him today. hee

he came over to my company to give me this. so happy. *giggle* *grin*

then my colleagues were saying, "skally got ring leh~ better check carefully"

i told them they think too much. hahaa den i told them skally got $1000 note! hahaa

*yawn* so tired now.. too many works too little time. thats wats in my mind now. tomorrow is a seminar, friday will be the Big day for me. the 1st event i will be doing in this new coy. but i have a happy problem. i have too many interested guests but limited space. hai... nxt time should choose a bigger area! any recommendations??

*yawn* zzz liao. tomorrow's another battle fighting day.

the mia me

2006-11-12T22:40:00.000+08:00

hahaa hihi~ i m back!

yeah the lazy me finally blog again. yest, i came across this scene and i almost rofl!

when was the last time you helped to cover your soft toys with blankets for fear that they might get cold??? mine was when i was in primary i guess. hahaaa

the above belongs to an act of a 21-year old. pengz. cannot make it leh.....

my luck with guys - bad

2006-10-08T23:09:00.000+08:00

think luck wasnt on me recently. especially with guys..

i made my dear MAD again. think i was too free on that day lar. kuku me went to kah jiao him. actually i din mean to msg those stupig thingy or rather it was meant to be a joke... but what's done has been done. promise i wont do it again. luckily after all my efforts put in, things r fine now. heehee

the other one is my godpa. asked him for a favour. but ended up, had to cancel the whole thing. wasted his and his friend's effort. in the end, he was angry wif me for making him bz for nothing. i really din want to.... but guess there was misunderstanding between 3 party bah. lesson learnt: dont be too helpful next time. kaypoh doesnt pay off at times.

went to sing ktv with senses. jer was a bz ger. so we went partohing ourselves. sang from 9pm to 1.30am bah. so long nv sing le. enjoyed it. =)

was so tired recently. slpt very earli n woke up very late. dont know y. missed the time to wake dear today. heng he was awake before i woke up. he is going to kl tmr and tw next wk. bz man. hmm... will he bring a handsome guy back for me? lee hom! haaha

1month of blogging

2006-10-04T22:50:00.000+08:00

wonder y i nv blog recently? 1 word. LAZY. haha i logged onto the net everyday and kept wanting to blog everyday and yet i kept postponing everyday! haa. so u wonder what have i been doing online. nothing much. i read people's blogs and played games. ya. i m into spider solitaire. haaha how unglam hor. nvm. here i m, blogging again. and i m going to blog about the past 1 mth's issue! hahaa

so many things happened, happy and sad. whenever i felt sad or happy, i felt like blogging but my mind just went blank whenever i m in this screen. duhz..

now, i m happy. y? cos my dear is treating me well. haa. call me a simple gal, nvm. he did not do much, he just do enough, enough for me to feel loved. muack~ i had been behaving like some siao char bo recently and think had given him some hard time. but he managed to make me smile at the end of the day. =)

met up with AL & Lam for dinner. jokers forever. we ate at botan at fesq. yummy yum. den we went to teh tarik for drink. chatted, gossiped thru out the night. used to dread going to fesq, especially seeing pushcarts gave me headache. now, i only have a sense of relief. that was how bad it was.

was trying to teach S to learn mj so that we can have enough kahkis. J & LK were so enthusiastic that they even gave her a set of notes on mj!!! hahaaa told S that reading is not enough. only hands on will make her memorise all the things. as the saying goes, practise makes perfect. haa~

had our d&d on last fri. it was a full day event. we had our press conference for the furniture industry award followed by annual general meeting, our election and selection of committee members, finally d&d. bz day indeed. but still we managed to squeeze out some time to do our hair. hair was done by one of our colleagues' friend. though everyone told me it looked nice, i didnt really like it. made me look so old...... dear thought so too. so i m not going to upload the pics for u to c. hehehee

finally i got to eat at waraku. only then i realised i had eaten at waraku before! it was the branch at east coast. went there with godpa and j n who??? i forgot. but nvm. was celebrating ro's birthday in advance with jy. will upload the pics for u to c later. cos they looked nice. hehee like the food served. though i thought the sashimi in the salad was a bit pathetic. i still craved for jap food now.......

watched Stay Alive after the dinner. short and nice show~ so many shows are coming up. Death Note, The Departed, World Trade Centre....... somemore but i forgot the titles. mainly ghostly shows. i love ghost movies~

i couldnt meet my targets for my design initiatives. sad. i couldnt get the speakers for our forum. sad. how come i cant seem to fulfil my job requirements??? sad. next tues is the 1st judging day. hopefully everything will go on smoothly. *cross fingers*

hmmm...... jer was trying to organize some outings but our dear ex lao gong was a darn bz man. always rejected jer. sense, pls go and do some soul searching & shun bian organise some outing again leh. lets hv jap food then ktv k? no one is allowed to leave before 12midnite. hahaa~

ok. time to catch some beauty sleep. going to hv my reg checkup tmr. going to ask the doc how come my tummy is so darn ugly n its outofshape!!! tmd~ maddening!

its all abt work

2006-09-05T11:36:00.000+08:00

I almost AGAIN forgot to change into my shoes before leaving office. When I saw the clock struck at 6pm, I packed my things and headed towards the door. Suddenly I realized, “hey! What am I doing with my slippers?” lolx. This is not the 1st time. The other time I even wore the slippers to lunch. Haaha

Managed to hit and exceed my target for one of the initiatives. Heng ah! Prior to the deadline, I was so scared that I couldn’t meet the target as the challenge this time round was much harder than previous year. Now that I have hit the target for this, I can throw this one side 1st and concentrate on the other one. Now, I am afraid that the other initiative wont hit target…. Darn, is life just for meeting deadlines and targets?

Went to RDI last week. The receptionist thought I was one of the students when I asked for the director. Haaha it was a fruitful trip. The students were more spontaneous and responsive than those in polytechnics. Their designs are quite nice too. There was one lecturer who was quite good looking! Heehe I didn’t manage to get his namecard though. But I got another lecturer’s. think he is a Vietnamese.

Really envy the students. How I wish I can return to school again. Before I studied in SIM, I wanted to try NAFA or RDI but cost constrained. No choice. Got to be more realistic. If only I have money or richer parents…. But I still like marketing. Just that I want to be a allrounder marketer.

my first encounterS

2006-08-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

R brought me to the famous mustafa centre. it was my virgin trip there. hee i knew it was 24hrs but didnt know it has so many buildings and sell so many things!! i even saw a mustafa tour or something like that. there wasnt any crowd even though it was a fri nite. i always heard that it was super pack during nite. but when we were there, i could count the number of people with my fingers. R told me during the day, it was pack. so was it day or nite? i wonder..

anyway, we went recce the place, the textile, the vcds, electronic, the pens, the watches and the supermarket. enjoyed shopping at the supermarket. bought a bottle of mustard sauce, 2 packets of hotdogs, 1 packet of cheese and ham, 3 vcds and toothbrushes. the prices were norm. not really cheap.

we wanted to watch vcd after the shopping trip but his vcd player was down! ended up, he played ps2, i read comics.

went to visit S with J on sat. S just given birth to a healthy baby boy, Dex. he is very cute. how i wish he is mine. hahaaa S opted for cesearian cos when her elder boy was born, she went through a lot of ordeal and pain before decided to go for ceaserian. so this time round, to prevent herself from going thru unnecessary pain again, she chose the latter. i was surprised to c her tummy still as big. she said she had a shock when she just given birth to the elder boy also. then the nurse told her its norm. would take from weeks to months before the tummy went flat. upon hearing that, i had 2nd thought abt getting pregnant. hee

a conversation between my mum and i"

i: 我要吃包和云吞面。
mum: 你不要整天一直吃啊。等一下你的胃习惯了，你就知道。
i: 对咯，then 就 eh eh pui pui.

arghh!! to hear these coming out from my mum's mouth, you must be thinking she mus be puttng on tons of fats. *sob* *sob* ya, i am getting fatter now. yeah, its not just putting on weight only, its getting fat! darn~ my waist went from 24inches to 27inches!!! arrghhhh!!! feel like dying when i saw the number on the measuring tape..... sad...... i also realised i got dbl chin!!! (when i tilt my head downwards, ;p) i am not the one saying so ok...... everyone who saw me told me so! K told me i look ok now, but canot put on anymore. yaya... now i can fully understand why those gers kept complaining abt being fat. i cant tahan oso. can you imagine, eh eh pui pui like tat?? yucks! got to control my diet now.

made from singapore

2006-08-23T11:50:00.000+08:00

Went to creative yesterday with JL cause, don’t know if we are lucky or what, both our mp3 players kapo at the same time! Was just telling her, maybe they purposely had the mp3 players programmed in such a way that they become malfunction during this time. Anyway, we were the only customers at the creative care. When JL approached the cso, the guy asked her to press for a number. I thought maybe there were some other customers whom were roaming around the area. We went to press the number as requested. Then her number flashed. It’s the guy! Idiot right? Can you imagine that? He could have just served her!

JL was telling me this incident which happened to a friend at one of our dear polyclinics….

Friend: I need to see a dentist. Having toothache
CSO: did you make an appointment?
Friend: no
CSO: I am sorry. You have to call to make appointment beforehand. We do not handle walk-in cases.
Friend: but you have no people here and I am already here, in pain. Can I make the appointment with you now?
CSO: I am sorry sir. Cannot. You have to call to make the appointment.
Friend: ok, what’s your number?
CSO: 6XXX XXXX
Friend (dialing the number with his hp): I would like to make an appointment to see the dentist today.
CSO (who picked up the phone in front of my friend): yes sir. Can I have your name and IC no?

Wah kao~ is the CSO a robot or computer??? Couldn’t she be more flexible? Pengz~ kowtow to her man. This is how Singaporeans are being trained over the years. Followed rules n regulations. Inflexible. A piece of wood. Hai…..

Back to the creative. I had a muvo when I signed 2 years contract with starhub cable. About 1 year, the muvo started to give me trouble. The connection between the earphone and the player was loose I supposed and I couldn’t hear the songs. I did not bring that to creative then. My bro had 1 muvo as well and also a ipod. So I took his muvo and he used mine for transfer of files purpose. After 1 year, his muvo also kapo. same problem also.

Creative called and told me they have obsolete this model and hence no spare parts available for this! Darn… waste my time. Anyway, I have decided to boycott creative already. Cos I bought a speaker from them and only 1 side is working! They think I am very free ah? Always go back to them for service?

something to ponder

2006-08-21T22:19:00.000+08:00

is a girl too demanding by wanting the guy.......

to be with her a little bit more?
to send her home?
to want to care abit more?
to do a little bit more than what she expected?

do you consider the guy bad if .......

he refuses to spend a little more time with her because he is bz?
he seldom sends her home cause its troublesome / out of the way?
his concern is below her expectation?
he refuses to do a little bit more for her?

is it wrong if the girl wants ........

to be with her loved one a little while more?
her loved one to do little things for her?
her loved one to love her a little more?
her loved one to know what she is thinking?

hmmm... just wondering....

its long post, mind u :p

2006-08-20T22:52:00.000+08:00

ever since i was discharged, i have been craving for cha siew bao. not any cha siew bao. only the ones at my place. small little one costs 60cents each!!! each time i would eat at least 6 of them. $3.60! hey~ just realised it cost as much as my med. blardy med.

other than the cha siew bao. i also have craving for koko krunch~~

doc told me to take more high in carbo and protein food. so i had a lot of chocs~ energy mah. so much so that i developed cough! how hurting it could be, especially when u had a long blardy cut with 14 staples punched onto ur tummy! but still, it did not prevent me from having my chocs cut off my from diet list. i can finish up the whole big pack of koko crunch within a day u know. its not just my breakfast, its my teabreak snack too. i have one pack in my office cabinet as well~ i love koko crunch!

oh ya, one thing gd. i have put on weight. 38kg now yeah~~

was having this 'craving' topic with R yest. told him abt my craving, just like his craving for chicken rice. he told me its different. his is a long term crave whilst mine was confirm, definitely a short term one. craving mah. wgere got long term or short term one mah. then led to another topic. attention span.

he said i have very short attention span. quite true. i cant sit still for long. even though i like to rot at home, i would be rotting in front of the pc, like now, and going to the kitchen once in a while to see if there is anything to munch though i have been there severa times a day already. i just have to do something. kept myself occupied.

remembered when i was young, i kept pestering my dad to let me learn piano. my dad dotes me alot and would give me whatever i asked for. of cos provided he could afford lar. he die die also didnt want me to learn. reason being, 三分钟热度. i couldnt hold my interest for long when i was young. but i tort i have become better. at least i learnt jap for a few years leh. i continued and finished my mktg degree. but come to think abt it, it is becos i really love jap or i just refused to give up like that due to my stubborness, hate to lose attitude? but one thing i am sure is i still have not lost my interests in him. that one he also agreed with me. haahaa. damn, y do i have to make it is so obvious? *blush*

R was complaining that i always fell asleep while watching movies, midnites. not on purpose, of cos. but u know, when u have to work during the day and by the end of the day, ard 1am, u r like at least 18hrs nv touch the bed, of cos u will be tired right? being a sleeping beauty, sleep is very impt to me. to think that i could stay awake all the way till that timey, it is quite gd for me already. dont u think so too? and if the movie was not that boring, do you think i would zzzz off? no right? just one small part, say around 5mins, would be enough to put me to zzzz already. i tried so hard not to doze off already but always failed leh. how come the cinemas nv sell coffee or tea one ah? can someone tell them to do so? thankx~

oh ya, was watching the national rally by pm lee. dont u think i m very 有文化，有墨水，serious? i dont just talk rubbish or write script only hor~ i felt the topics raised were very close to us and would definitely affect us. but at the same time, a bit manipulative and trying influence our thoughts. at some point, i really tort ya its so true. we shd embrace foreigners and together we are one big happy family. let us open our arms and welcome the new immgrants bah~ but these are all the beautiful pics he painted. he nv showed the ugly side of the pic. ya. of cos cant show lar. if for me, i also wont let u know the ugly side, even if i let u know, i would hv the a remedy to that already.

i reckon alot of foreigners will come rushing into this little red dot soon and we will be as pack as hk and more probs will come after that. tort pm lee was quite humourous in his speech. nv enjoyed watching the rallies except for his. only watched it after last year's. he had successfully brought up the topics in a very lighthearted manner yet had his msgs delivered across forcefully.

the wired and wireless society. y do i keep hearing these these few weeks? guess this is going to be the big thing after today. senses, direct ur biz thoughts to this topic now. u can make big money with this instead i think, rather than ur other sell-earrings plans. maybe sell wired / wireless earrings? have a wireless security system? wireless peaking system? or teach the uncles / aunties using the internet? will be the in thing then. nxt time, it will be uncles and aunties ircing and exchanging photos and meet up. can you imagine??? can even teach them use photoshop~ then they can do away their wrinkles before sending the pics over. lolx. ok i think too much. but cant help!!! haahaa~~

tired liao. time to sleep....... ohya, before i go, may be i shd put my pic onto the what? 'spacemind' issit? lolx.

a very super successful gathering :)

2006-08-19T15:49:00.000+08:00

wooohoooooo~~~ yest was the most successful gatherings so many donkey yrs. was quite surprised that when i smsed the gang on the day before about meeting up yest and everyone agreed! jer n i was thinking that we shouldnt be so happy until the very last min as our gang is famous for being the 'high flyer'. haaha everyone turned out, though some pple got to leave right after the dinner, it was still a gd one. Gd job done pals! hee

we had our dinner at the 'infamous' bbq korean restaurant at bt timah, opp beauty world. not bad the food, not ex also. J, our scholar who is also a rare customer to our gatherings, had to ask us to update her one by one. after the dinner, we went to KAP, our favourite-exam hunt to continue our updating session.

about 10.30pm, everyone got to leave except for senses n i. hmm.. seemed like we r the only 'no life' people in our group. haa since the night was still young, we went to JEC. initially we were planning to play pool, but ended up watching movie. i managed to get our weak & have hyper tension condition (when watching scary movies) senses to watch An American Haunting with me after i told him i will send him home after the show. haahaa i think throughout the show he was peeking at me so many times leh (when the scary parts were showing.) *tao yan* lolx~ my dear exlao, when will be our next scary movie adventure leh??

though this was a short gathering, its nice. wondering when will be our nxt gathering... will it be in Nov? i think so..

today i m going to a friend's house to gather. yeah again but different group this time. we are having pot luck. had my mum cooked my favourite grilled chicken wings! *slurp*

aimless updates

2006-08-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

i want to revamp this blog!!! joiz must be laughing at this statement now. haaha~ i have been saying for eons and nothing have been done yet. i have been giving lots of excuses to put off the plan to revamp this blog. lazy me. but i really wanted to, just that i couldnt find any nice pic for the background. this is no excuse hor. its a reason. =p but to think i always say R for postponing what he has planned. say no action. pot calling kettle black. haa. its always easier to say than done. guess this is human nature bah.

saw this news just now. mediacorp will be moving to bt batok in a few yrs' time after their lease at caldecott hill has ended. woohooo~ i think i m beginning to love this lousy hill side for the 1st time in my life soon...... lolx. soon the stars will be able to see me as and when they like. how lucky they will be!! LOLz~~~ :~>~~~~ can u see me tearing??? haahaa~

this is the 3rd week of work after my mc has ended. frankly speaking, i like what i m doing now. i like my job, the colleagues, the environment. but i hope to do more than what i have been doing currently. its the same feeling when i just started to study at SIM or work at my previous coy at fes. though hard work, lotsa ot works at times, i enjoyed myself alot. it is so different from how i felt when i was at jp. the 1st day of work was so serious and sad for me. if u could still remember how i whine and grumpled in my blog d other time. i did not bring much things over n was counting down to the day i would tender. haahaa that was how bad the situation or i was feeling then.

but here, its totally different. i brought and bought a lot of things to work. i have a cabinet full of tidbits, sweets, biscuits and cup noodles. hee. shall take some pics and show u guys one day. most imptly of all, i can use msn in broad daylight!!! lolx. i know its just some cheap thrills lar. but some pple cant even enjoy such cheap thrill ok~ dont mind. haahaa when u are doing something you like at a place u like, its like heaven on earth. but if 1 factor is way below your expectation, dissatisfaction sets in. slowly, u will begin to hate what u r doing. and this will lead to RESIGNATION. like what i did.

today, a friend tendered as well. she is going over to vivocity. this is a day she has been waiting for. hee. she promised to bring me over once she settles down. not now my dear. i am still enjoying my honeymoon. hee. luckily i have already left that place. to think that my battlemates are leaving me one by one and the mgt sucks big time, i dont think i will be able to perform even though i have the capability. i m glad that she found a new job. it may not be as gd as the current one but who knows right? since the current one is already so shitty, dont think it can be any worsen to move to another shit hole. skally its a heaven leh? hee lets keep our fingers cross!

oh R went genting with his family today. will be back on friday. he missed his dad's bday celebration cos of work commitment. then misunderstanding deepened cos of loyalty to friend. so suay man. so much things happened recently. even though i have been keeping cool abt them, i m not sure how long i can tahan if they are going to grow bigger. i donno how can he tahan also. let pray n hope everything will be in control soon. but think what he needs now is, discipline. think he has serious disciplinary problem. haaha. will he kill me if he sees this? lalalallaaaaaaaaaa ~~~ but i really care for him mah, right????

i seriously think that my blog is becoming more n more crappy, aimless n meaningless. darn~ have to find a theme for my blog nxt time. i will. DEFINITELY. ;p

rantings yet again

2006-08-13T23:31:00.000+08:00

me: i realised i hv no life...
coll: y?
me: have been watching movies recently. almost finished all the blockbusters. like nothing to do liao
coll: then i m worse. have been at home recently. din even catch any movie.

hmmm... i really caught alot of movies. spent so much money on movies which i always tort its a waste of money. but it seems like there is nothing much u can do at nite, except catching a show. especially when u hv no transport. late at nite, wherever u wanna go, u hv to take cab. waste money. den u r only restricted within a certain boundary.

still remember how T used to drive me around. especially to bedok to have the bah chor mee. missed those days sometimes. promised him to buy bah chor mee. but hv been postponing it. haaha. lazy leh...... but he asked me again. told him i will buy nxt week. guess i hv no choice liao
who wanna go bedok n eat bah chor mee?? let me know leh. maybe we can go together. hee

looking for trouble

2006-08-12T14:47:00.000+08:00

y do i always feel that i m being taken advantage of? y pple wanna take advantage of me? is it bcos i m easy going/kindhearted? i hate it when pple dont appreciate what i have done. even if they appreciated it, they would take a step further and asked for more (i m not trying to advertise for pepsi here =p). i m here for u, i help u cos i care. i dont know what will happen and i dont care also. i just want to be happy. but i m not obligated to do whatever u wanted me to. u r just like K, abusing me. dont make me dislike u. u wont like the feeling, neither do i.

i tort i can be bighearted enough to forget about everything. but i realise, the past still lingers. i can forgive but i cannot forget. i m not a saint! whenever u upset me, i would think of the past. how u treated me, what u have done, u and that stupig ax-xxxn and what u have done for her. can u see the flame around me? darn~ frustrated!

whenever i think of the past, i feel sad for myself. whenever i think of the past, i feel so stupid. whenever i think of the past, i feel like yelling at you. whenever i think of the past, i feel like abandoning you. but i nv. i dont know y. i tort time will heal, i tort u will do whatever to make me feel better. u did. but do u know it takes a longer time n more effort to mend whatever damage you have done earlier.

some things are best to be left unsaid but u said it, at the worst timing somemore. though u appologised, it still hurt. nvm. whatever requests u hv, i tried to follow suit. have i ever told you how much or what i have done for you so far? i nv. but y do u have to list what you have done for me? and were they solely for me? nope. think harder. maybe we are just making use of each other during this transition period. i m fine. but dont make it a point to prove that u have done enough to make up for what i have done for u. cos i dont care. cos i believe u can nv win me. dont waste your time.

dont always wait until u think i m angry or upset with you then u come and make me happy. i dont need someone who will make me happy only after upsetting me. i wan someone who can make me happier when i m happy. i dont wan someone whom i m readily to 共患难 with but hesitate when asked if wanna 共富贵 with me. who wants? though u dont mean it, its too late lor.

y do i still bother abt u when i myself is already so exhuasted? y do i still bother how u treat me when i already have lots of concerns from others? u r not as impt as u think. maybe u still are but remember things will fade, pple do change. one day when i think enough is enough and that's it.

now i m thinking of the past, y? cos u upset me. tmd~ u make me so ugly. bloody nincompoop

a brandnew tomorrow

2006-07-31T22:13:00.000+08:00

tomorrow i will be working already. my mc actually ends on 5aug. but since i can work already, might as well go back. i m starting to feel abit lazy to work already...

went to watch midnite yest cos R promised to watch movie with me after i recovered. dont like the way he mentioned. as if i forced him to do so like tat. anyway, watched lady in water cos dragon tiger gate got no seats!! can u imagine on sunday nite leh. y those people so free like us?? hahaa of all the 3 movies by the director, i forgot his name already, i liked 6th sense the best. the plot, the way it was shot, the twisted ending still lingered in my mind. lady in the water, i felt the director had succeeded in capturing the audience's attention, at least mine lar, with the shots and music. but the storyline is not really that fantastic.

before that i had a chat with R. some so-called intellectual conversation by him. i was 90% shut off when he rattered on and on. i just nod my head without knowing exactly what he meant. he was speaking to me about the singapore system, the education system, the govt. but i must say he really read alot. alot more than me. i only read novels. haa

will tomorrow be a brand new start for me? i hope so. i realised i have not been doing what i have preached. heart over rules the mind, again. also dont know what i want. maybe i am feeling too free, too lonely recently. mind is in a state of confusion. i need to sort out things man. i need to do something, have a focus. need to have a goal.

new assignment

2006-07-18T19:07:00.000+08:00

received a call today. someone wanted me to write an essay about my illness and what i have gone thru. haahaa. when was the last time i wrote an essay??? i mean story leh. hmm... how should i write leh? i can only talk cock leh. write something serious?

let me think........ once i finished the cock essay, will post it up and you guys must give me some comments leh! btw, the deadline is thurs. so got to do something now!

*headache*

rotting ger

2006-07-17T12:28:00.000+08:00

wrote a letter to a friend juz now. it has been eons since i last write a letter to anyone. with the advanced technology, email has replaced slow mail already. though i prefer to receive letter, i dont like to write letter. reason being, my handwriting is not nice, too troublesome. got to think, write, when write wrongly, have to erase / liquidpaper it away, den mail it out. *sianz* but to receive one is so heartwarming... hope my friend will feel the same way as well. ;)

have been getting up very early nowadays. woke up at 5am almost everyday. can nv have a deep sleep after i got back from hosp. think i m used to the nurse waking me up almost every hr in the middle of the night to take my temp / pressure. so what do i do when i wake up? eat lor. have been eating almost every hour. thought having chocolate will be gd. ended up having cough. kns.

very determine to gain back my weight. darn! i m only 32kg now. horrendous right?? having cough and my wound is somewhat infected. so i went to c the doc n shun bian weigh myself. regretted. sad. this is the weight i had during my upper primary times..

suddenly have this thought, maybe i should not have any baby in the future. cannot imagine my baby inherit my illness. hai... how sad right? ok lar i think too much. but nothing to do mah.

btw, anyone wanna play mj, pls call me. :D

usual rantings

2006-07-14T07:06:00.000+08:00

yest my bro asked me and my mum how we find his gf. quiet, demure, tall, ger-nxt-door. my mum, obviously is pleased with her lar, told him this, "你喜欢就好。" kns.

for all my past r/s, never for once she said this to me. told her this. she said cause of the working hours of R, that's y. bs. its because he doesnt have a stable career lar. asked her if my bf is a professional who has to work night shift or go overseas to work, would she mind? of course not.

this is how realistic one can be, including me.

he asked me if i would still find him as my bf if given a chance. i said no, not now at least. no becos i had given him the chance, i tried but he refused. after so much things have happened, i become stronger, yet he is still the same him. nothing has changed. if we were to be together, the same old things will still happen. we will still be quarrelling over the same old issues. maybe not so much, cause kan kai le. but still we have no common goal. would rather find someone new.

yest, again, i said something that bruised his ego, stabbed right onto the sore spot. was very sorry but i have no choice. i dont like him being such a weakling, hiding behind the wall. he has so many good points, strong points. but dare not step out of his comfort zone. even though the whole zone is a swamp. i have tried using other methods like coming up with solutions but he doesnt want to try at least a bit. rejected my ideas. so tired.. in the end i shot him with all the hurting facts, forcing him to face the reality. my words hurt him. i became the bad person once again. guys, can teach me how to bring across truthful-yet-hurting facts without hurting the other party???

3 persons told me come out with business plans / ideas during my mc. how bad right? all guys somemore! kns. i m sick leh! so bad. talk about entrepreneurship, being daring, adventurous, keeping an openmind. *yawn* i still have my own ambition. my ultimate ambition is to be a tai tai, not housewife leh (big enuff mah lolx)

so what if i dont like to have my own business? i admit that i am not a businessminded person. everyone knows. i only wish to have a stable job which i love. but that doesnt mean that i am not careerminded. i want to climb up the stairs and reach the top management level. money is not everything to me. as long as i have enuff to spend, i am contented. love what you do is more impt. its the job satisfaction, not the money factor.

but i am still keeping my option open. one day, may be i will want to be my own boss leh? who knows.

post-op morterm

2006-07-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

the past 2 weeks had been hell for me. my health crumpled together with my fav soccer teams, Brazil & England! darn~ the day i was admitted into the hosp was the very same day they lost. how sad life can be huh?

how many times have i been admitted into the hosp? hmm... guess not many pple know that this was the 4th time i stayed in hosp. the 3rd time i had op. though the 2nd was a minor one. each time there was fear. of cos lar, being cut up leh! lolx.

its a mixed feeling. i m so glad that i have so many caring and supportive friends and family. its all those little actions that you pple did make me feel that i am not alone. all these keep me stay positive.

hate staying there. hate the feeling of being of helpless. hate it when my family had to suffer cos of me. hate it for having such lousy health. hate it when everyone has to worry for me. most importantly, hate it when i CANNOT EAT OR DRINK for almost 11days!!!!

oh ya, do you know, food was the only that kept me going in the hosp. haahaa. i wanted to eat, so i opted for the op. after the op, i dreamt of food!! the dreams kept me going. lolx. doc kept telling me that i have to let gas and move my bowels before they could let me eat or free me from those sickening drips.. the drips made both my hands swell like trotters. doc even threatened to put drips thru the vein in my leg if they cant find any in my hands. how bad right??

the very day when i was able to drink water.... darn!! the water was SWEET!!! no joke leh!! den milo was heaven... even plain porridge was like shark fins to me then. lolx!

i thought having able to eat was meant i could go home and everything would be just fine. but no lor. when doc told me i could go home, i was thrilled, followed by fear. how am i going walk from carpark to home, how am i going to the loo, how am i going lie and get out of my bed, how am i going to bath??

in the hosp i kept lying on the bed. the physiotherapist came, got me to sit on a chair on the 3rd day of my op. get out of the bed leh! how painful u know. on the 4th day she said we shall walk, i was like HUH??? how to?? pain leh! moreover, nv eat, no strength. walked around the room once onie, i felt like dying already. fear of pain refrained me from moving around. but the thought of getting out of there was even stronger. so no choice i forced myself to bear the pain. but i requested for stronger pain killer in case i couldnt tahan at home. hee. but so far so gd lar. pain is still there. still cannot stand for more than 5mins. have to sit most of the time. i can feel food moving in my intestine. painful also. sux.

this op made me realised something. it made me stronger. made me realised nothing is impossible as long as i am willing to move the 1st step. all talk/thinking but no action, is nothing. u can be thinking of doing alot of things, having big plans/proposals. but if u never execute it, its just bubble. fear is something that will stop alot of people from taking the 1st step. everyone is happy in their own comfort zone. uncertainty is definitely not a gd feeling. but no pain no gain.

friends

2006-06-23T17:08:00.000+08:00

T was out yest. when i heard the news from D, i was so happy. happy for him. i dont think its gd staying there. he msged me this morning when i was just abt to hit the pillow. then we chatted. he asked how am i and so on. and talked about his new job and also mine. we will be starting our job on mon. different location of cos. his position is landscape technician. cool huh? haa.

he has changed. more matured, changed for the better. was glad to know that. he knew that also. he said if not for this experience, he wouldnt have gained and thought so much. a more surprising thing, he accepted christ! lolx. of all people. anyway, happy for him.

he told me P was upset that we nv contacted him. but we didnt know how to. his parents was so lip-tight abt his whereabt and his bro is not in sg. there is no way we can locate him. anyway, now that we have the address, i shall write to him soon. P, dont worry. you are not forgotten. we are friends, forever. gosh, long time nv write letter already. hmm...

R-week

2006-06-23T16:12:00.000+08:00

this week is a R-week for me. R = relaxing / rotting. basically i have nothing much to do. wake up, eat, watch tv, sleep. i did springcleaning to my room! but still lotsa stuff. hai..

i didnt like rpg game at all. to me the games are slow, i cant c the results fast enough. people cant understand y i like bubble puzzle or colours so much. its because i can get instant results! i dont have to bit around the bush to find things which i dont even know what they are. but due to nothing better to do, i played fatal frame 2. cant understand why some people dont dare to play at night. the graphics are fantastic but i dont think the ghosts are that scary mah. anyway, almost vomitted blood while playing that game. after i toured around the stupid house for dont know how many ample times, i asked myself this qns, "what am i supposed to find?" lolx.

can you imagine that? those designing games, can you kindly give some clues to how many items we need to find in a particular location? at least give some ideas mah~ i dont even know if i have found everything already though i have combed that blardy house sooooooo many times. i wanted to leave the house, the game kept refusing me! what's worse? the ps2 is not that great lor. i was bz fighting with the idiot ghost and halfway, it HANGED on me!!!!!!!! arrrrghhhhhhhhh pengz! so i tried to save the game whenever i found new items. but i could only find 1 saving point & whenever i tried to go there and save the game, some idiot ghost will come and attack me. so bad.

have been following up on wc these few days. i am not a soccer fanatic but i am a yandao-kia fanatic! lolx. and i have found some newloves! haahaa.

introducing Brazil (No. 8) cum AC-Milan (No. 22) player - Ricardo Izecson dos Santos Leite - Kaka!

Next, Netherlands (No. 10) cum Hamburger SV (No. 23) player - Rafael Van der Vaart

cute mah??? young chaps and guess wat??? darn all married. kaoz~ all my idols, beckham, owen and these 2 - married. hai.. all the best. ;p lolx

ok enough of soccer. went walawala with senses and jer yest. it has been ages since i last went there with them. jh was supposed to meet us as well. i even told him not to put plane or fly kite. in the end, he still became our high flyer. hai... anyway, live band, unexpected, ROXXXXXXXXX!!!

another finale@work

2006-06-16T15:39:00.000+08:00

yest was my last day of work. intended to clear my 2hrs off at the end of the day. meaning, i could go off earlier. but my mgr rejected my request. *sob* *sob* she asked me to start work later instead. i found the suggest abit stupid so i rejected her but she INSISTED. she said, "you are sick right? sleep more. can lar. come in later. sleep more, k?" leaving me with no choice. hai.. in the end i got to cancel my dinner plan with k& his wifey.

anyway throughout the day, i had nothing much to do. i didnt have much to say to the colls as well. cos i didnt know them that well. had lunch with my colls at fiesta. not nice. condemn! AP & EC bought me a gift. they were so excited that they kept asking me to open it up in front of them. AP said it was my beloved. i said my beloved is either $$$ or guy. then they laffed so hard. BINGO! they bought me a mug.

cute mah? lolx. c! how people can read me so easily! just 1 mth and they know me so well already. haahaa.

even though i worked there for just a mth, friendship was made, bond was built. people treated me well. even my mgr i must say. initially when she forbade me from sitting in any meeting, i felt so xin ku, so redundant, so not trusted. but later when she said after her briefing with the new ger, she would pass her to me and i would have to hand over whatever i had onhand to her. she nv asked to sit in the handover process like she did when my pre-decesor did the handover to me. i thanked her for trusting me. lastly, she wished me all the best, nv made things difficult for me. my coll told me, she nv did this to other staffs before. maybe bcos she knew i m a gd staff bah! hee

byebye jp, byebye ultramen, byebye everyone there!

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went to watch Silent Hill @ cineleisure with AL & R. not bad the show. after the show, suddenly i had the urge to play ps2. called ZM and borrowed his ps2 as i knew he just has a gf, surely has no time for game now. lolx. true enuff. he agreed! told R to get the game n set from him the nxt day!! so excited. lol

eventful job

2006-06-13T20:06:00.000+08:00

how many events have i done so far in this less than 1 month old job? 20shows in total. 1 with mediacorp, the rest with event coy. wah! impressive right? this may be my best record but definitely not my coll. she told me during cny, they had to work non stop throughout. even during weekends when families and friends were having gatherings, she had to work. poor thing right?

what have i learnt from here? i have learnt to control crowds and parents! parents are the most sickening creatures on earth. so unreasonable. so arrghh! only their kids are precious, not others. selfish. kids do what you told them, but not parents. stubborn old peeps. i have also learnt that sweet smile dont work all the time. u got to be stern and talked SERIOUSLY to them then they will listen. if not, you got to get one of those fierce looking guard for help. but sad to say, most of our guards are old and fragile looking uncles. they are even more scared of parents than us. hai......

ohya i have also learnt to do concept papers, proof-reading and managing sound system. hee.

here, they really plan ahead. budget was set long ago. everything was so systematic. but also they have the support from the top mgt and also tenants which i thought was very important.

one final thing i have learnt: there are 3 ultramans, namely, Dyna, Cosmos & Nexus!

final week @ JP

2006-06-11T16:01:00.000+08:00

again i m blogging in the office. how sad right? its a sun, its raining. yet i have to work. its just another eventful day. gd for u who are still lazing or bumming around at home.

i m counting down now. yes, counting down again. when was my last count down? hmmm... last month. hahaa. now another one. same thing there was not once i m having alot of free time. Except now lar, cos the next show only starts at 7pm. arrghh! actually i should be doing my handover list now. tomorrow the new ger is coming. but feeling abit lazy.. shall just pass over whatever xj had handed over to me instead. hee

yest, my mgr tried to psycho me again. i thought she has given up the thoughts already. haa. she even told me jokingly that i can even be a dj next time if i stay on (cause we have to operate the sound system). she tried to fish something out of my mouth, but i :x. but i reassured her its definitely not a shopping mall. she then told me event / exhibition job is a very boring job. then she told me to email her to tell her she is right! haahaa. funny lady~

some people told me how bad she used to be but mellowed down alot. i believe so. to me, she is a person who really works! she is not the one who passes work to subordinates only. she delegates, she goes through, she scolds, she explains, she stays. she may give us looks sometimes (woman mah.. i also do give face sometimes, lolx). she did try and joke around and mingle with us but guess because of her position and her previous behavious bah. it makes her hard to be part of the group. but i have to say, the execs here do respect her cause of her work attitude. at least i do.

but i really have to say i really learn alot from here. if it was in the previous coy, i doubt i would ever learn anything within a month. its really a pity that i am unable to stay for long to learn more but... whatever decision made, there is an opportunity cost, right? everyone was saying that i m bad or too rush to change a new job within such a short period. but i was thinking, y let opportunity slip out of your hand when it is right in front of you? moreover, mine is in my hand! now, not only they are betting on worldcup, they are also betting on how long i can tahan the new job. kaoz! what kind of friends they are right? i don't jobhop one oke....... i shall prove them wrong!

moving on

2006-06-04T11:06:00.000+08:00

news update!

i m moving on. leaving the current place to another. i really felt like being ter-gan. i have to work on sat n sun (fullday) den rest on mon. tues to sun (fullday) again! c how gd my mgr treats me. it really doesnt pay to be kind leh. i extended out of gd will and this is what i get in return. anyway, my last day is on 15th june.

so tired now. preparing for another round of show. shall update again when i have the time n energy...

substitute

2006-05-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

its easier said than done. said i have gotten over but i lied. i tried, i did tried. but guess i failed. i wanna b cold, b heartless but i always cumble before u. said i am afraid of karma but its more like i dont bear to do it to u. i dun mind talking to u but i hate it when u kept reciting the reasons for our breakup. i dun need to know them, i dun want to know them. the more i hear, the sadder i become. what r u trying to prove? i really dun know. r u sure u r only trying to convince me? it looks like u r trying to convince urself more. if u really think those are the reasons then let it be. to me, you are just like a coward. u dare not face me cos u feel guilty. u have to keep telling urself u did nothing wrong to me; u hurt me none.

how can i have gotten over u within such a short period? u told me u were deeply hurt by her and asked if u hurt me as much last time. yes of cos u hurt me, u hurt me so deep. how dare u still ask me such qns? i felt like laughing when i heard ur qns. haahaa. i hate myself for not able to shout or scold u when i shd. i think i really shd. give me one more chance, i will definitely do that to u.

u said within 3mths u r already defeated. what do u think if its over 1yr? u shd be glad i was still rationale enough not to do anything silly. or rather i shd be glad. cant imagine me going over to ur place and knocked on ur door asking for another chance. i will kill myself if i have ever done that. some said if i truly love u, i would definitely do that. i dunno but not for u at least. maybe i dont love u as much as i thought. maybe.. hopefully... i wish i dont..

mothers' day meal

2006-05-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

today is mothers' day but my mom ditched us for genting trip early this morning. we had dinner at teahouse at china square foodcourt. the one jy and ro treated me for my bday. i actually wanted to treat her the dimsum meal during the day time but my dad couldn't make it. so we switched to dinner.

we had ala carte buffet. cos it mothers' day, so they jet up the price - $33/pax. but worth it. eat til i pengz though i couldn't eat alot at least i tried alot mah. ;p

the dinner is nothing like the daytime meal. but still got peking duck lar. yes, i had pekin duck again. was praying hard that the peking duck would be different from 老北京 cos they r both from tonglok. indeed, it was different. much better. only the skin this time round. for the ala carte buffet, they would give us 1 round of peking duck / drunkard prawns & sharkfins soup. the drunkard prawns was great! i love it. but was abit disappointed with the sharkfins soup lar. it was not the normal sharkfins soup which we have usually. the sharkfins were soooooooooo small. i laff at the look. lolx! initially i still told my dad, not sharkfins lar. the waitress made a mistake it should cabbage soup. den we saw the small sharkfins, we pengz. after the dinner we went home.

went shopping with joiz before the dinner. she needed to get some gifts for her overseas customers. actually wanted to get new clothes myself but couldnt find any. or rather no time to find any. after the gifts were ready to be collected, its time for me to rush for the dinner.

my farewell meals

2006-05-14T18:34:00.000+08:00

have been eating alot since last week. its my farewell meals. other than the jap meal with my mgrs n colls on tues, had chinese food at 老北京 at ps on wed. the food was ok but felt cheated by the peking duck. $48 for the whole duck but juz a few slices leh! moreover, the skin comes with the meat n the skin was very little. usually for peking duck, they would slice the skin for you. den cook the meat and bones one. this one no lor. i din like the duck. this meal was treated by the gers at csq. thank you~

had my farewell with fes colls at bambu, an indonesian rest, on thurs. this time round i treated them. this is the culture of fes. if one leaves the coy cos of better prospect, the person will have to treat the rest. it is a happy thing. i dun mind treating them. haa~ i always like the food there. its nice, the price was norm. not too high. the durian cum glutinous rice was superb! it made me craved for durian till now........ arrghhh~

thurs was my last day at work. i still worked n i really meant working leh. normally on the last day, people dun work already. wat they do was parade around, saying bye bye, taking pics. i did those also lar. but onie to a few people onie. i am not really close to the rest, especially those doing residential thingy. was trying very hard to clear as much as i could so that my coll wont have to follow up too much. poor thing got to take over my job suddenly. she was scared that she might not be able to do it. anyway, wrote a farewell email to everyone i know. was quite skeptical at 1st cos i dunno wat to write but just drop a few lines lor.

i m looking forward to my new job tomorrow. whether it is gd or bad, at least it is a brandnew start for me. cheers to a better tomorrow a better me!!!

i took alot of pics, wanna upload them but the idiot yahoo photos / shutterfly seem to have problems leh.. cannot upload all. can someone tell me y??

farewell lunch

2006-05-09T21:30:00.000+08:00

had my farewell meal at odeon tower - hanabi. a jap restaurant. it has both ala cart & ala cart buffet. only one word for the service - bad

when the waitress came to take our order for the drinks, she was damn rude. we were discussing what to have and she tapped our table and asked what drinks we wanted. i mean what kind of service is that?? even if you go hawker centres, those aunties / uncles taking orders won't do such thing right?

nvm, next we ordered our food. initially my coll and i ordered sashimi & tempura set meal that comes with rice. we asked the waitress if we could change the rice to cold soba. she mumbled abit and said can. she seemed like doesnt understand eng (think she's jap) well so we repeated ourselves. she said can. ok. when our food came, there were only cold soba!!! no set for us~ kaoz~

then my mgrs asked me to take ala cart buffet instead. but to ensure that there were only soba for us, we asked the waitress to tell us what were our order, was there anymore coming up. she couldnt tell us! then the mgr came, we asked the mgr if we (2 of my colls and me) could change to ala cart buffet instead of having the set and we would top up the difference since the one which my coll ordered can be found in the buffet the mgr said no. ok nvm.

den we told them we wanted tempura but prawns only so they don't have to waste the vegetables. the mgr also said cannot! we are trying to help by not wasting your food leh. in the end, we ordered 2 tempura and ate the prawns only. c! cannot understand y the mgr and the staffs are sooooooooooooo rigid leh. com'on rules are rules but can be flexible also right? you are not the only one in the service line. this is not the 1st time we heard complaints about this restaurant already but my mgrs tort i like sashimi so decided to give it a try since everything was hearsay only. but it turned out to be so true!

so hanabi! out of for me. this is just my personal view. maybe i suay or what lar that the floor staffs all bad mood and we kanna this. but still i tort there are still ALOT ALOT ALOT of rooms for improvement. lucky thing they nv take part in the GEMS thing, if not, i confirm complain all the way. haa.

btw, their sashimi is great. fresh. but the soba not that gd. tort the soup base was abit bland and the soba was not smooth and chewy.

admin ger

2006-05-08T22:43:00.000+08:00

someone mentioned that i m gd at administrative work. after all these mths of hard work as an a&p staff, i heard no comments. but just 2 days of covering admin duties, i was being praised. but shd i be happy or sad? not that i look down on admin but i goal is to excel in mktg field. rather disappointed lor.. darn... i told the gal who passed the message to me that she shd have told them i m also gd at being a taitai, lagi better at spending money!!! lolx.

went to a launch just now. the opening ceremony was hilarious. there was a crystal ball look-alike thing in the centre of the stage for the vips to put their palms onto it and tada! it would lit up and confetti would pop out. i was studying the stage with my sm, we couldnt see any gadget for the confetti. nvm. when the vips put their palms there, the ball din lit up and at the side, there was a guy using a confetti 'popper' to pop out the confetti!! how unglam right??? one of the celebrity guests was allan wu. he tried to dissolve the awkwardness by acting funny like releasing energy to the ball so that it would lit. haa~ wonder how much they paid the event organiser.

batam trip

2006-05-07T22:29:00.000+08:00

went to batam last week with S and 2 of her friends, HS & C. it was the most relaxing and zho-bo-ing holiday for me. 2days-1nite. our main aim was to have the spa only lar. aim met. but i tort could be better.

the hotel was much better den i expected but the food sux big time. ex and not nice. hai... bought a tshirt & a cap for myself tats all. the 'rewards' were not as terrifying as the previous time. maybe cos of the group and the place we went ba. C is from HK. she had a shock when she saw the town of batam and the shopping centres. haahaa. kept reminding her that is a 3rd world country, canot compare. lolx

chose a 2hr spa - full body scrub, full body masque, full body massage. after i was covered by the masque, she wrapped me up. leaving my face in the open. the masque was soooooooo hot that i felt like dying. lucky thing she came before i called for help. but don't know whether is it becos i carried too much thing right after my massage or wat, my shoulders / back still ached. darn. waste money. feel like having another massage but in singapore lar. any recommendation?

took lotsa pics. have yet uploaded. will show u guys once done.

war @ office

2006-04-29T13:39:00.000+08:00

i was greeted by a complaint letter by one of my new tenants though the letter was not attentioned to me (it was to my col but she did not have her email so sent to me). the tenant has the tendency to twist and turn our words so when i saw the letter, i was indifferent to it. it was harsh as she threatened to sue us for negligence. but i believed it was just a miscomm, nothing serious. some people's bark is worse than its bite. u know what i mean?

anyway, i forwarded that letter to my col for her info and to followup. immediately she called and asked what did the tenant want. blah blah blah. she was so pissed off. so i told her, she was just being difficult. just go and c her and find out what she wants lor. after that my col told me she would reply my email. i said ok, fine with me. i tort to close the matter mah. NO! darn~ her email was so harsh and she cc to her boss as well as mine!! kaoz~ y do you need to cc the bosses when u have already solved the prob? trying to push the blame to me by saying i nv give proper instruction?

y is there such person? i can understand y she was so angry, i can also understand her outburst at me when she called. its natural for her to respond this way. but if u want to write something in black and white and CC the bosses, won't you check before accusing people of not providing any info and wont you check your words?

immediately upon seeing the mail, i called her to clarify some uncertained points. she asked if her letter is too harsh. OF COS LAR! she apologised. she said this is work, nothing personal. i knew and said nvm. i replied her since she CC to my boss. i wanted and could be mean to her since i m leaving soon also but it would definitely reflect on me. so i used a very neutral approach. in the end, she kanna from her boss for the way she handled the issue.

she was very apologetic after the mail and kept saying sorry. hai... wat for, right? y din you think before doing it? the damage has already been done. furthermore, i think it did not affect me but u. i m leaving, i dont care u know and i knew i was right. think thrice before action, really does help at times. xiao mei mei.... make a mountain out of a mole hill. argghh!

her following attitude did not help to appease my anger. handed over a task to her. it was actually a very very veryyyyyyyyyyyyyy simple task. when i said simple, i meant it. even a pri. sch kid will know. she told me she did not know how to, ask me to go and teach her again. initially i said ok. but later the more i think, the angier i bcome. darn~ need me to give u a spoon??? yest, i called and asked her if she could go to the file and take look at the things i had given her. and asked if she could do it n fax to acc. again she told me she don't know how to. damn it! i couldnt help but to raise my voice at her. i said "i don't believe you cannot do it. it is just that you are lazy to read it. if you read and digest it, i m sure u know. it is very simple." you know what she replied? she said "hey dont think i am very clever one leh. i m not." kns leh! anyway i told her she confirmed can do it and call me if she has any problem. less than a min, she emailed me telling me she faxed over already. c! she thinks i super free ah? idiot... free also will not waste my time this way mah~

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going to batam tomorrow. told someone abt it on tue. she commented its cheap in a very disgusting way. nvm. i m used to it already anyway. den the folloeing day, she actually came and ask me abt the trip, where i stay and how much cos she may be going!!! kns leh!!!!!!! y slap ur own face???????????????

so glad i m leaving soon. i mayb jumping into another shithole but better den here definitely.

lobo princess

2006-04-20T15:47:00.000+08:00

hate those who made me gian gian then last min put aeroplane. nv intend to go holidays before i start my new job but idiot K kept telling me how great/nice/wonderful/fun/superb taipei is. then after all the hoohaa, how? told me tix are too ex. so cancelled. tmd!!

argh! then now i wanna go touring, no one is available!! to think i have soooooooooooo many friends but i am the only one lobo-ing. kns leh~ those whom i have tort of, they are either married with kid / without / pregnant, getting marry, just changed job, just went or already planned to go tour in july. y? may is such a nice month you know.....

so sad.. think i can only go for my spa trip.. short and cheap.. damn.. if this one oso cannot, i really wanna die liao leh......

help me help me..... suffocating....... dying..... arghhh.... lobo-ing......

i quit i quit i quit quit quit

2006-04-16T00:00:00.000+08:00

made a major decision this week. i have decided to move on. was thinking abt the offer since last sat. intended to reject it but in the end, i accepted it. y the change of mind? asked jy.

asked a lot of people for advice. the pay was not great so it was not a pulling factor. its the job scope and the job satisfaction which i will gain from there that attracted me. felt so useless whenever i have nothing to do. though they promised to let me learn more, they have no time for me. rather than wasting my time here, i better venture out when the opportunity comes.

lk asked if i regretted the very next day after i made the decision. my ans, NO. in fact i was very happy. haahaa. everyone was happy for me. hmm... m i really tat sickening that everyone wanna c me leave in no time?? haaha.

heard that my future mgr was not one who is gd to bully. duhz... nvm lar. as if the current is very gd to bully like tat. as long as i can learn from the mgr, who cares. the most i quit lor, right?

the feeling of leaving is so great! wan to start anew! leave all the bad things behind.

planning to go for taiwan in may. ken tempted me soooo much with his description of the food, places of interest, shopping outlets etc etc etc. duhz.... so i have decided to give it a go! but subject to him getting the tix. =)

苦命的我。。。

2006-04-07T02:35:00.000+08:00

was so happy yesterday and today something bad happened... was feeling so lethargic the whole day, thought it may be due to my late night the day before. but no lor.. at about 6pm i started to experience the pain. darn! my tummyache was back!!

the pain did not stop like the recent cases. i have been experienced these pains on and off recently and the frequency did increase but not as pain as today lor. today's was like the one i had when i last admitted to sgh. then fever came. i was horrified! praying hard that vomit wouldnt follow. it did not, thank god.

nvtheless, i still went to a&e at about 9.30pm when my parents got home. doc did suggest tat i stayed but i refused. told him i wanna wait for blood test results 1st. so he gave me panadols & drip. stupid doc wanna poke my right hand and i told him no. i dont care if my veins on the left hand are finer and he couldnt find, i just dun wan him to poke my right hand. what if i really got to be admitted, then i will be handicapped! no choice, patient is the customer, customer is always bigger. haahaa i won of cos~ anyway, i stayed till 2am. fever subsided and the pain was gone miracally.

now i am back at home. very hungry now. still thinking what was the cause for the pain. was it the jackfruit i took this morning. high fibre fruit. hmm.. NO MORE JACK FRUIT!

Happy Birthday To Me :)

2006-04-05T23:49:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday To Me
Happy Birthday To Me
Happy Birthday To MeEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~~~~
Happy Birthday To Me!!!

yeah~ its moi birthday. proudly present the past mid20s crawling towards the elderly circle ger!!! lol. am i siao or wat? haahaa

the 1st sms i received was from an excolleague from feo, followed by senses. ya, senses, u were late!! but nvm. :D i received a call from him. he asked me if today was my birthday. should have told him no. haa~ anyway, he wished me happy birthday and said he was at kl. upon seeing not much response in me, he said bid me gdbye. haa! nvm i wont let this kind of thing spoilt my sleep! shall continue with my birthday adventure!

the 1st pressie i got was from my bro. he bought me guang liang's yue ding cd. oh boy, i havent got myself a a cd, not even a pirated one, let alone a 正版cd. haahaa. thank u bro~ i love it!
nxt, i received an angbao from my mum, which i tort was a promotional gimmick from the 美珍香肉干 since she nv mentioned anything about the angbao. so i ignored it. when i was on board the bus, she called and asked y i nv take the angbao. luckily i nv threw away with the leftovers. haa.
buta gave me a big surprise by sending a bouquet of roses & bear to my office. was soooooo shock when i received call from the reception. he definitely perked up my day after a heavy lunch at fullerton.
my colleagues too. they went to get a cake for me. nv tort they would do so since we are going for lunch on fri. hee
joiz & e got me a bag. cos i mentioned to joiz i need a bag. i need $$$$$$$$$$$ more leh~ golden tortoise the most!!! lol
my dad gave me $$. hee so happy. the whole family still remembers my birthday.

alot of pple msged me, wished me happy birthday, reminded me of my age, blah blah blah...

tmr going to meet up senses&jer. jer wana intro a bronze tortise to me. senses wanna turn him into gay. so bad right? c who is more powerful! hmpf! lol

on the whole, i m a very happy. i m a very blessed ger. i m an old, blessed, happy ger :D

surprised call

2006-04-03T14:42:00.000+08:00

got a surprised call just now. someone asked me to go for 2nd round interview. hmm.. alt sat job, over the weekends / ph may be burnt. though i wish to change, alt sat is definitely not in my list. should i give it a try? maybe i shall just go and c how. they may not want me in the end. i still prefer the other one leh.... y that company still has not called me.... sad......

& my story continues

2006-04-02T22:27:00.000+08:00

joiz told me she wanna leave some comments in my blog but cannot! cos i nv update. hee. pardon me. mood wasnt that gd for the past week so didnt really feel like writing but i wont forsake this. eh.. at least, i will inform you guys lar.

went to work on fri and saw a ger wearing a pair of shoes which i fancied! but i dont know what brand it is. then i did a very ungraceful thing. i took out my hp and snap snap! lol. paiseh... till now i still dont know what brand is that shoes after showing many people! can someone tell me?

nice mah??? hehee anyway i thought, or most of the people i asked told me should be addidas but i couldnt find there. hai..... btw, the ger was sitting down, tats y the position. this is not ballet shoes.

went to addidas concept fashion show on fri evening. thought the food & alcohol was much enticing than their fashion. haaha oh ya! their models, the hunks, were great! looked at their bods more than their attires. :)~~~~~~

met buta for a drink. made him drive his tuscani. all along i thought his was just a normal hyundai car. i m not a car person anyway. so when i reached the waiting area, i saw his car but i nv went ahead cos i thought couldnt be that lar. lol. den he called me and asked me to get me. haa. paiseh paiseh. went back quite early cos of that car lar. vroom vroom car cannot go home too late, if not will get roadblock easily. duhz.. as usual, sotong me, gave the wrong direction again. haahaa. super paiseh leh~ but i acted blur lar. lalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

yest i went town with joiz, E & L. again, kok me! forgot my wallet. wanna buy LV but cannot.... hee just kidding. was telling joiz about the things i wanna buy along our way to orchard. was disappointed with myself.. joiz then very 好心的 gave me $50. *touched* *sob* told me to spend wisely. lol. in the end i nv spent any. dinner was on E, drinks was on godpa. argh! i got such great pals! MUACKS! i promise! when i find my golden tortoise, i will not forget you people!!!!!!!!

went to No.5 at emerald hill with joiz, E, L, godpa & his 2 friends. got 2 glasses of lychee martini and some vodka ribena. lousy me. i puked.... duhz... paiseh. in the end, godpa's friend said moral of the story was dont play 5-10 nxt time. i told her, you can play but cannot lose. haaha.

my birthday is coming!!! sad cos i hv to work on that day. got a presentation with the koreans. i m the coordinator, tats y. so sad.. will tell them i m getting off after that and leave the nxt day! rot at home.

age is catching up...... but my money isnt.........

story teller

2006-03-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

have a crazy idea suddenly. i wan to be a fabricator, spinner, creator, twister of fable tales. :D here goes by the story........ ENJOY!

Once upon a time, there was a girl who was given a poisonous apple by a big bad wolf in disguise while she was waiting for her granny in a hut. Nothing happened after she ate the apple. But when the clock struck 12midnight, she became a really ugly frog and her granny died of shock upon seeing that. She was so upset by the turn of events that she cried and prayed everyday for miracle to come.

One day, while taking a stroll, or I should say ‘jumping’ around the forest, she came across this magic mirror. Seeing herself in the mirror, she sobbed uncontrollably and asked why her, what should she do. Surprisingly, the mirror answered her! The mirror told her she would need a kiss from a prince to return to her original self.

One day after many many years, finally a prince on a white horse rode past her hut. Upon seeing the prince, she JUMPED towards the prince and kissed him!! She became human finally. BUT The prince died after kiss due to kiss poisoning, she died also, due to old age.

Lesson learnt: don’t wait for opportunity, find it. LOL.

The story and characters above are fictional and any concides are purely coincidence. :p

hahaaa lalalalalalaaaaaaaa~~~

just for the day

2006-03-19T22:26:00.000+08:00

did not go out yest. too lazy. idiot buta called me a rotter. duhz.. i am just being homely mah. :)

went to the newly opened CSC @ Bukit Batok. it is meant for civil service but also open to public. not big but high. its like a maze for 1st timer but quite easy to find ur way out since it is not that big lar. lift very slow. haa. there are gym, spa, bowling, winehouse, makeover studio and so on. oh ya, has got really big pool or should i say have alot of pools to form a big one. hehee meant for fun one, not those olympic one if u r thinking of that. its new, so alot of facilities are not up yet. but the bowling centre is ready. can go there and have some games next time.

jy is going to europe in sept to attend a friend's wedding. so gd.... i mean the bride. hahaa she is going to marry a new yorker. they are holding their wedding at greece......... damn...... kill me for that. guess the furthest i can go is sentosa to hold my wedding next time. haahaa. we were discussing about her europe trip with carol and again i dreamt about going tour.. europe. okz~ shall go next yr, if possible lar. muz buck up! find new job!! arrghh!

reached home just in time for my pearl harbor. watched this show in the cine before. loved josh hartnett eversince then. so touching the show..... i cried again. *sob* *sob* was watching this with my bro then i intro him A Moment To Remember. another tearjerking show. idiot~ kanna suan by him, saying i am a sadist. always watch sad shows.

ohya my bro took up dancing classes!! salsa dance!! woohoo~ wondering its the dance or the people he was attracted to. i m also going to takeup dancing class. exotic dancing class. hmm.. anyone interested? we can go together. hee ohya~ my bro's dancing lessons cost $100 for 6 lessons. is it cheap or ex? forgot to ask him how long is the lesson. must remember to ask him tomorrow.

he told me he has no money to return me last week but has money for the class. liar. no wonder the nose getting longer each day.

intended to revamp my blog but no ling gan. wait bah. next time. till then.

fool again

2006-03-18T14:53:00.000+08:00

i always hate people for lying. if u ever want to lie, please make sure there is no loophole. if u ever want to lie, please dont let me find out. felt like a fool. i treat u as my friend and this is wat i get in return.

yest was supposed to meet up with K & others cos his wifey just returned from taiwan. she is a taiwanese. he asked me to book kbox in advance, double confirmed with me that the gathering would be on but not so early. so i went ahead and met senses, jer & j for dinner at LPS.

met up wif senses 1st. on the way to our seats, i saw him. nv expected it though. i walked off after a glance. think he saw me cos i walked past him right in front of his seat. this is not the most crucial part. damn i was kanna put aeroplane by k!

idiot right? he was the one calling for the gathering! when i msged him saying that i would be late, he still replied that they have changed location, asking me for the time i would reach. then i asked him what time did the place close. no reply. when we left LPS heading towards jurong then he msged me that they were at UE sq cos kbox & chervons were fully occupied!

rubbish right?! in the 1st place u should have told me about it! how can you tell me only after you have reached? though he did apologise, i still think he treats me like a fool! he told me the kbox was full. damn u, i booked a room for us lor. and so happen that i went to kbox with senses & jer they all, we asked the recept if there were enough rooms if we had more friends joining us, she said no prob! c! TMD~

do you think i think too much? he said he had no idea cos its another friend who called for him and told him these. i dont believe. actually i was thinking, maybe he and his gf would be going thats y k nv tell me about the change of venue and made up those excuses. lamer~ idiot MLM. arrghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! the more i thought, the angier i become!

go and learn ur pc skills from the others! dont come and find me!

fastest decision made

2006-03-16T22:19:00.000+08:00

yesterday i made a decision within split sec. so fast that when i thought of it now, i was amazed by myself as well.

my mum told me she was going to thailand in july. i asked y nv asked me, then i told her i oso wanna go. immediately i logged into the net and booked the tix to bangkok myself. of cos i checked with her the flight details lar.

16july to 19july. total $95 only! cheap right? $8 tix. lol. but later i realised they hvn booked the hotel. no one is going to sleep with me. lonely~

c~ before i can confirm my taiwan trip which i am supposed to go in apr, i had already booked the tix to thailand. but very happy with my decision. at least now lar. :)

damn.....

2006-03-16T21:46:00.001+08:00

today we had our retail conference at fullerton hotel. the teabreak food wasnt that great but the lunch was simply yum yum! superb! i seldom praise hotel's buffet. but for this, i gave 10 out 10! lol. i found out it cost $95/pax!!! super ex! but nvm, coy paid. hahaa

today i received smses from one of my colleagues. one whom i liaised before but have nv seen each other before. his smses somehow gave me a creepy, yucky, sexual harassmet kind of feeling..... read this and tell me if i m over sensitive.

him: you hv brown straight hair is it?
me: ya
him: finally i can put a face to the name
me: haha where r u? i still cannot put a face to your name
him: i will wear a red rose on my pocket so that u can meet me at tea break, ok?
me: hahaa you come and find me since you can recognise me
him:u look much sweeter than what i mentally picture u to be. r u expecting to meet an ah pek?
me: thank you.

darn.. think he is a mgr. when i saw the red rose & u look sweeter, i was like er xin leh~ u trying to pian xiao mei mei is it? halow~ i m almost going to pass my MID 20s lor~ oh shit! mid 20s is leaving me soon......

no one calls me for interview. very sad.

spy ger

2006-03-15T23:01:00.000+08:00

muz be wondering y the previous blog? something stupig happened. lol. keep guessing.

someone kept msging me. no choice but to entertain abit. so all my answers were like: ya, nope, ok lar. upon seeing this, he began to use open-ended question: Y??? darn... some people hor... dont know if they are just plain stupid or they act blur. cant you see i am just entertaining you? you still continue. to a point, i dont even bother to reply. now, i ji tao put away

today i bcame a spy ger. went round taking pics. no, i still haven changed job. no, i am not a honey trapper. went round orchard road taking photos of our competitors. so darn hot lor the weather. almost die of heat stroke. after that i helped my sm with her slides. did till 9.30pm. drop dead tired.

tomorrow i m being NOMINATED to be the receptionist of the day. no words can describe my feelings now. tears dropping. shitty job. :~(~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

scolded K today. he asked me to help him registered a new email acc. told him i was working still, so got to wait. den he sms me, asking me to do it before 10pm. fed up. told him off. i help u cos u r my friend. doing u a favour. it is not an obligation. still dare to demand me. so what if i do it after 10 or dont even do for u? asking for help still so yaya~ but he also suay lar. mood not that good today. obigoot! lol

dont feel like talking

2006-03-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

damn sianz

2006-03-12T19:43:00.000+08:00

damn sianz, very sianz, super sianz... just feel like rotting. but rotting also sianz. argghh~~ something is wrong with my lifestyle now. or with me.

thought i should do something to make myself happier. so what did i do? moved a small step just now.

i cut my fringe. :D

yeah, i did it again. hahaa i always enjoy visiting the salon whenever i wan a change or pamper myself. and i wanna do something outrageous with my hair. but too lazy to go out so i decided to start with the fringe first. i nv like going to salon just to have my fringe cut. thought it was so bo liao. moreover my hair stylist can never understand what i wan to do with the fringe. so since i was in upper sec, i have been cutting my own fringe. can cut the way i like, the style i like. heehee

now that i have my new fringe, i shall decide on what kind of stunts to do with the rest.

scary dreams

2006-03-10T10:10:00.000+08:00

it was another alt sat job. so sian. but their working hours are so much lesser than mine!! darn~ felt so cheated. have to wait for their reply. if pass, will have to go through another round of written test. sian again.

yesterday i had a nitemare. i dreamt that my dad was trying to murder me!!! all these while i have had dreams of people chasing me, trying to kill me but i never get to see their faces or remember them. but this was soooooooooooooooo vivid! my dad was holding on to a knife and trying to stab me, right in front of me!! i was so scared that i cried in my dream leh~ not sure if i did cry out in real life. but it was so real. so sad... after that i dreamt that i went to this really dilapidated building and went up these flights of old, croaked stairs, for what i dont know. then i came down. half way through my journey, suddenly something happened!!! Guess what??

my alarm went off.

lol~ ok lar. also dont know why i had these dreams. but my dad is trying to murder me~ hmm.. is it becos i nv buy him gift for his birthday? is it becos i took away his hp? is it becos i nv give him $? is it becos i am too naughty? arghhh~ scary scary. anyone knows how to interpret dreams???? any ideas? hahaa~

i need my beauty sleep

2006-03-08T21:48:00.000+08:00

dear all,

i am going to sleep early today. i have to and i will. no matter what happens. dont want to look like @_@ tomorrow. hahaa~

oh ya the 2 friends really got my contact from my cousin and now they r in my msn list. sianz. think soon i am going to be someone "appear to be offline" also. lol. one of them is going to add me into his friendster list!. go and check it out!! oh gosh.. i m so bad.... i am bad i am bad~ lalalalaaaaaaa~~

today i managed to clinch 3 deals and found 2 keen prospects for my pushcarts / kiosks. not a bad day indeed. but the 2 r selling similar things. hai.. how? can some innovative products come forward?? i will give u the cart without qns ask! haa

happy birthday papa

2006-03-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

today is my dad's birthday. almost forgot to wish him tanjobi ometeto~ called him when i reached the coy. guessed he must be very happy cos i could hear him ahm chio in the background. lol~ dont think anyone would call him to wish him happy birthday also cos my family is nv the affectionate type.

going for interview on thur. not a big coy but at least its listed, joint venture. similar job scope. will keep u guys updated. :)

some commented my blogs are lengthy. hahaa i dont update everyday mah. all in one. no gd meh? dont think i can update everyday. lazy. but i shall keep in short next time. *X* my fingers. haa~

but i do think my blogs are too details. hmm.. muz try and b more vague next time. ar bo one day, suay suay read by one of the leading actors / actresses will die man. especially the one bad things. lol.

next, i also think that my blogs have no depth! like venting blog. no gd. i shall put in some inspirational, got ink stuff. but once again, *x* my fingers. hahaa i will try. :D

date

2006-03-06T22:58:00.000+08:00

when was the last time you went for a blind date? or have you ever been to a blind date before? to me, calling for a blind date is like attending an interview. except, you called for the date, you have to do homework, instead of the one being asked out. cos you are the one interested in the other party not vice versa. you have to be attentive. if you are not a gd speaker/host, get someone who can be the joker/entertainer, then the atmosphere wont be that 'groomy'..

my most recent date was last sunday. lol~ cannot imagine bah. not bcos i was that desperate hor.. cos i gave my cousin, wj, face. if not, both kx & i would not bother to attend. the whole awkward thingy lasted for about 5 hrs. went to ktv at kbox then makan at sakae. all fully paid. :) the only gd thing about the outing. the guys are too quiet, too lao shi looking. not our type. they asked 1 qns, i answered 1. nv even bother to ask them any. so in the end, i dont know their jobs, hobbies, age, or watsoever. cant be bothered, basically. they tried their best, i must say, to continue the conversation but to a point i felt that its too hmm... how to say leh... just throw watever they had in their mind bah. 1 even asked me if i was still schooling. lol. they had asked before for my job and i had replied them. now asked me this again? hai.. then immediately he asked if i am taking part time studying. *pengz* i said no. then immediately i added, "i have graduated." anticipated that his next qns would be "do you intend to further your studies?" lol. pls do your homework before meeting leh!!

anyway, that was the last outing i supposed.

went to thai village with pa, ma, di, gdbro & ed. pa's celebrating birthday. ordered the $288 set. then +++ became $348!! sehz~ ok lar. shared among my di, gdbro and myself. the food was abit salty. thought the standard has dropped a little but the service was still gd. but nvm, i still enjoyed their SHARK FINS~ i m so cruel........... lol.

last sat kc asked me to watch Underworld Evolution and i still told him i m not interested. i dun mind watch but wont purposely go and watch lar. waste money only. hahaa but in the end, i went to watch Underworld Evolution with my cousins and bro after the dinner. true enough! bloody show. storyline mah.. not that fantasy. super de not highly recommended show.

just realised one of my ex colleagues had one of the lowest scores in the last appraisal. she had been with the coy for many years. i thought her performance was quite gd. was surprised to hear that. now, we have new policy. those who failed the appraisal will be axed. without warning. cruel. thought this is very unfair. what if the boss doesnt like you? then jialat lor. if only the appraisal also consists of peer evaluation. then it will be fairer i think. the thought of this just made my day so sian and sad.... got to find a way out soon man.

finally awaken.....

2006-03-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

alot, i mean really alot of people are quitting now. guess the quitting wind blowing now. damn i muz really buck up man!

yest, or rather this morning i received a call. guess who? its him. the 1st thing i asked was: did you drink? lolx. he said no. he said he called to see how i was. told him he could just find out from K. he said K's word cannot be trusted. the most only 30%. then believe 30% will do. dont have to call me. then asked me if i know the reason behind our breakup. i asked him was it impt? since we r no longer together, no point. then he told me its becos of communication prob. i told him no, its becos we didnt try hard enough. i still believe love conquers all.

after that he told me how he has been the past few mths. he had an ah lian gf for abt 1 mth, then 3 weeks later another gf whom i happened to know as well. his colleague. i asked him y let me know all these. he said no reason, just wanna let me know, dont want to lie. in the 1st place, i didnt even ask for it. he asked me to get on with my life. i did. who was the one kept calling? its him ok.. one call a month. for what? shi wei mah? who cant get over who now?

he said he want to see the real me, dont become another one cos of the r/s. i asked him what does he mean by the real me? people do change over time. i changed, that doesnt mean it is not me. just that i have changed. nothing wrong.

i asked him what was his motive for calling? when he called, did he think beforehand? do i want to hear from him? i said he just want to fulfil his desire/intent, hear from me and to find out how i am.

silently i was thinking this: "you are just hoping i m doing well and will not hate you anymore so that you can live happily everafter. F U!"

he told me he really hope to be friends with me. he said i will be a gd wife, gd gf, gd friend. so? it doesnt concern him anyway. i told him next time whenever he is bored and feels like talking, call his gf or friends, dont call me again. ya i threw him that sentence.

what did he really want from me? utterly disappointed with him...

i sms him this: i dun think my friends would ever treat me the way you treated me when i was in hosp. you may think its fine with you. but not with me. when i think i can get over this, maybe then we can be friends.

monday bluess......

2006-02-27T10:36:00.000+08:00

a colleague just found a job of her passion and her mgr asked me if i m interested to go over. hers is a&p retail which was what i wanted all along. i did ask for transfer initially but was kanna bombed by my am that i didnt go throug h the proper procedures. was it my fault? no one told me what happened, no official memo or meetings. what i gathered was hearsay. how could u blame me for not going through the proper channels? i didnt go and see the sm purposely. it just so happen that we were having meeting then. hai.. nvm. now, the mgr wanna me to go over but refused to talk to my mgr. he wanted to tell them instead. he was afraid that if he was to tell them, it will spoil the r/s. darn~ if i go and tell them, that means i will be spoiling the r/s right? siao~ guess he is just another "i protect myself 1st" kind of mgr.

nvtheless, since i have decided to leave the place, i might as well be an obedient staff and do my own job without creating more troubles.

last sat, my sm called me in the morning. duhz.. i was having my beauty sleep leh. at 0930hr. can you feel my agony and depressed feelings? spoilt my mood. no mood to sleep, no mood to go out. i spent the whole day sleeping. yeah, pig i know. i thought only sleep can let me forget everything. but i was wrong. i had nitemares! damn! dreamt about work, event spaces, pushcarts, arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!! can you imagine??????????? i need some anti depressant, anyone has?

so long nv hear from joiz already. muz be having great time there. got any mer-man or yan yu? hee

yesterday i met up with jan, alex & cyn. went to partyworld ktv. had a gd time with them. sheryl was supposed to meet us if she could make it. apparently, she couldnt lar, cos she didnt turn up. alex was as usual suaning me without fail. kept telling me i m not getting any younger, muz get marry soon. idiot leh.. he is only 1 yr younger mah, talk so much. he asked about r and i, if the reason for our breakup was we shared the same gf. haahaa. idiot~

cyn brought her digicam. her digicam was 8mega pixels with funny functions! u can have different combinations of the pics, slimming effect, fattening effect, beautifying effect, blah blah blah. was exploring her cam throughout. lol. going to get a new cam soon! haa

jan & i was the last to go. she let me drove her car. it has been almost 1 yr that i last drove a car. k lar, since it was already midnight, not much cars around. but there was this pickup that purposely drove next to us and actually turned his head to look at us! duhz~ i know i was abit slow and clumsy lar but i seldom drive leh. muz u actually do this kind of action??? argh~ dont let me see u again. confirm cut your lane all the way. *hmpf*

going to meet our anchor tenant later with my mgr and sm. they are going to complain about me? i dont know, i have kept my mgr posted what i have been doing. she nv update me. nothing i can do.. lets c what will happen later. keep my fingers cross.

mega interviews

2006-02-22T18:13:00.000+08:00

it was a hectic day indeed. had 2 interviews. 1 from the big media org and another from the 2nd biggest communications org. too many hipcups in the morning. rushed to take photos for the interviews, photocopied my certs and so on. i know i know.. i should have gotten all these way before. but u know me. haa~ when i was on my way to the media org, i was organising my certs and i realised the guy forgot to zap my transcript!!

me: "UNCLE, U-TURN!!"
driver: "HUH?!?!"

lol.
in the end i went to zap the transcripts somewhere else. the uncle waited for me and vrroooom me to my destination.

when i reached there, saw around 8 gers. all gers mind u. all coming for the promotions executive position. sweat. went in the boardroom for the written test. it was in chinese. grasp! nvm. whats worse? i had to write in essay form! darn~ it had been donkey years ago since i last used chinese to write anything! tried my best to write whatever that came to my mind. then suddenly, suck~ how to write that word?? luckily i got a nokia hp, not the old samsung hp. if not, i confirmed die. thanks nokia~ lol. used the dictionary for help. haa the test took us 2 hours.

then the hr lady came and said the interview would have to be postponed 1/2 hr later! that means it would be 2.30pm. argh! my next interview was supposed to be 3.30pm! how to rush?? i called the other org to postpone my interview. but the bad hr said cannot. only earlier no later. duhz.. luckily a xc came to my rescue. he helped me to book a cab in advance. so immediately after my interview i ran to the cab and went to the next round.

anyway, the interview was a disaster also. i was being interviewed by 5 people u know! 5 leh~ was so gan chiong lor~ i pi li pa la pi li pa la rushed thru my speech to a point they actually asked me to relax. haa. what funny was, they asked me if i would like to self intro in mandarin or english, i told them both. haa~ i was thinking, how am i going to say i am an advertising and promotions officer in mandarin. so i decided both languages were the best option. anyway, i din think i fare well this time round. cos they said they feel my chinese should be much better last time upon seeing my results. of cos lar, that was sec 4 results my dear..

the next interview was also a bad one. guessed they wanted someone with more marcom experience than one with event mgt experience. out also i supposed.

hai... when can i ever leave this shitty place??

Fri Nite Out

2006-02-18T14:46:00.000+08:00

after 2 weeks of sending & pending, finally i have got replies. going for interviews on tue. actually have 2 interviews on tue. hee. one after another. both are big organizations. hopefully both will want me then i can be the chooser, not the begger. lol but sad to say, bloomberg rejected me!!! duhz... they 'have eyes don't know orh yi orh' lol. nvm. i m still very happy, excited, thrilled~~~ hahaaa will i be star stuck or carrying an orange umbrella walking down the streets? lol. think too much. wahhaaa i sotz already. pardon me. :D

promised rama on wed to go drinking yest. actually was just kidding then. didnt want to go drinking on wed nite, thats y i mentioned yest. thought he might just dismiss the idea. but i was wrong. he called E and got the rest of the ex colls out as well. no choice.. waited for E in the office then we walked to ms. it was like ghost town when we reached there. joined the gang at around 8.30pm at newsroom bar. nothing much to do initially, so i joined E & LW in the arcade game. then we proceded to our sissors paper stone, five ten & drinking sessions. can you imagine, within 1 hr, the 6 of us finished a bottle of chivas. total they opened 3bots i think.. duhz.. rama even made friends with the mgr and he promised to give us memberships. he said he would call and fax us the application forms. inshaala~

anyway, i didnt stay thru out cos i have to work today. after the 3rd bot came, i told them i had to leave. initially they refused to let me go but i still got my way out. poor E, they said she had no reason to leave so they made her stay thru out.

was chatting with godpa and he asked me if i finished reading those comics he brought to me when i was in hosp. i told him i nv finished but i did read some. i lied. arrghh~ bad ger. lol shhhhhhhhhhh........ he said that was the 1st time he ever did to someone and he really prayed for me when i was in hosp. not even for his closed ones. so touched~ shall find him a gd wife next time! hee

thought it was really 邪门. whenever someone mentioned abt him to me, that very day, i would receive calls from him. previously when kel told me abt him & the ex broke off, he called. yest, when E & godpa asked me abt him, he called again. he called my room. saw his no on the caller id when i got home. thought i drank too much and was seeing things. damned it. spoil my life again...

happy post v-day

2006-02-15T18:45:00.000+08:00

Belated Happy V-Day~
hows everyone's v-day? mine was sad.... y? cos senses nv give anything. hai... jer, did u receive anything from him? wonder if J received any.. lol

was just telling my colleagues i saw a plump lady holding a big bouquet of roses. duhz.. y no one sent me har? then 1 of them said, maybe she bought it herself. she must be crazy to do such thing on a vday. ex lor~ for me, i rather buy a bear. cheaper. haaha.

nv like to go out on v-day, unless i have a bf. everywhere u go, u see couples. makes me green with envy only. :p the only place u can find companion is the cyberworld. thats y i logged in net, once i got home. made me realise, i m not alone. wahaahaa

were talking to my colleague about the list of advertisements we have for our projects. then told her, we should also do one for ourselves:

"Tai Tai Wannabes Available. Highly educated / sweet & demure / sophistiscated & pretty, you name it, we have it. For more info, please contact XXX-XXXX"

hahaaa~ we worked too hard. very hard. hence, abit cranky nowadays.

just realised i have so much things pending. a lot of my licence agreements are going to be expired soon. havent talked to them abit the renewal. no mood. whenever i told prospects the rates, they said the rates were too high. if i were to tell the old tenants, they confirm faint! but what to do. everyone is talking about increasing rentals. no one dares to reduce. feedback to my mgr, she said no. hai.. got to find comparables to justify the reduction.

received a call from an agency today. finally leh. though its an agency, its better than none. hope tomorrow will be better. bloomberg~ pls call me. i like u better. lol. i love ur pantry most.

i volunteered to take part in our loyalty card programme committee. u must be thinking since i m leaving, y bother. just wanna learn more. moreover, i enjoy doing promotions & marcomm stuff. it will also add value to me, more things to write in my resume. hee.

met up with an event organiser just now. he was in charge of the current shaw bazaar. hopefully he will deliver what he said. cant afford to make another mistake. will cause me my reputation & job, though job wise is not as impt now. lol.

at my old office now. love here. cozier. my little corner. waiting for my ex colleagues. we are going to amara hotel to have thai food. :) yeah~

~lengthy post~

2006-02-13T20:43:00.000+08:00

yoohooo~ updates updatez updatex! Happy HappY BeLated ChinEse New YEAr~~ lol

yaya.. i can hear those grumblings. shall update once n for all if possible. dun mind if this blog gets abit too lengthy.

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on the day before CNY eve, i was on the verge of tendering. was so upset with my AM, with the whole system... so down that i called my mum in the middle of my work and asked her if i could tender right after cny. guessed my tone must be darn serious & sad. she said ok after a few sec of silence which i took it as 'stunned' timing. haa immediately after i reached home, i started to look thru the papers, internet. edited my cover letter & resume. phew~ so long nv did those already.

but i nv sent any until cny eve. something happened. tat tenant called me!! arghh! cny eve leh~~ i smsed my mgr & asked her to settle. sent my 1st resume on cny eve. this is not the worst. on cny day2, my colleague called! darn~ cny leh... cant u just let me off??? *teh* i pressed on the silent button & went back to my sleep. swore to myself i would nv listen to any colleagues' / tenants' calls during the holidays.

i knew i was bad. but no choice. i m really tired. sorry L.. too bad u got me as a colleague. this wont be long, i promise. lol

thru' out the whole cny, everyone was telling me not to tender before i get a job. if not, no market value, no demand. how sad... the whole cny mah...

D-E-P-R-E-S-S-I-N-G

angbao got lesser, value got lesser, fun got lesser, even the food got lesser! my mum din even prepare bakgua~ can u imagine????? so what i did was i ate as much as i could when i was at my uncle's place. hee monkey is really suay i think. din win = lost. lost $70 i think. but ok lar. everyone's happy. for those who gave me angbaos, wished me gd health & gd career. i told them, nono just wish me get a golden tortise soon. lol.

went to kbox on day1 nite. wah~ $200 for 5 pax from 12.30am to 4am. ex ex...

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asked my mum this: given 2 choices -

1 with similar education, better career prospect but owe the bank tonnes of $ vs 1 with lower education, stable career but not as gd as the former, nv owe $.

qns: who will she choose?

ans: she chose the former.

she said,

"gd edu & gd career means later part of the life u can enjoy. with the latter, u will have to slog forever."

duhz... tort she would choose the latter leh. cos former owes $! her FAV. hee.

den in a very serious manner, she asked me,

"how old is he? doing what now?"

hahaaa in very serious tone, i ans,

"not me. i wanna be taitai remember?"

den i reminded her, i wanted a yandao rich bf cos all guys sux. senses, u dont belong to that category. dont worry. haahaa

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was reading xiaxue's blog n she mentioned that she has another private blog which she poured her heart out. den i remembered i used to have 1 private blog too. no one knew. only me. i had that when i was with T. private yet open.. private because i nv mentioned to anyone & no one knew its me. open because everyone, anyone could read. anyway, that blog was used to vent my frustrations & woes.*sobs* *sobs*

other then blogs, i have another one. its my diary. had a habit of keeping an diary since sec. but it suffered similar fate of my blogs. nv update it constantly. but i make it a pt to write in my diary whenever i have a new r/s. usually its from day 1 to the final day. unless u knew 'silent break' lol. dont know where to stop. just stopped when i felt nothing to update. but as for my last r/s, i stopped when i found myself repeating similar contents...

nothing much happened today. he was bz working as usual.

same old sat / sun. dreaded weekends...

quarrelled again...

even for quarrels, the issues were same!

so much so that i din feel like writing my diary. the purpose of keeping diary is to keep all the memorable memories, be it good or bad. even if its bad, its sweet to read about the making up after the row. but when there were too many bad memories, then no point.. the more i write, the sadder i become, later become numb. this is not the original idea of having a diary.

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met up with Jan that day. supposed to give her her xmas gift but i forgot to bring. getting old... nvm. heard all her rendevous & updates & updated her with mine too. of cos mine was not as flowery / fantastic / colourful / bombastic as hers lar. maybe bcos all those happened quite some time ago. the impact was not as deep as before. & also after repeating umpteem times, i sort of tired / lazy to repeat them. i cut out the meaty part & left the skins & bones. (ya just like me lol) she told me, i should keep my option opens. dont shut the potentials out. be like her. guys will nv treasure gers unless they feel the threat/they realise they were wrong once. true. i know that, i m still keeping my option open, until i bcome a taitai!

RESOLUTION FOR THE DOGGY YEAR:

TAI TAI 2006

Latest Update

2006-01-24T14:33:00.000+08:00

yesterday 2am
phone: *ring* *ring* *ring*
me: *dreaming*
phone: *ring* *ring* *ring*
me: *still dreaming* but subconsciously i thought, 6.30am already? kaoz... must be mum, nvm alarm not yet ring
phone: *ring* *ring* *ring*
me: *suddenly wide awake n pick up the call* wey.....
phone: hello, u are very tired ah?
me: *puzzled* who are u?
phone: me, r**k

was surprised to hear from him. asked him y he called. he said cos he was just around my area so thought of calling me. *bullshit* i asked him for what. then he asked how was i getting on and hows my sickness... but later i realised all these were just bullshits. he wanna know if i hated him. K told him i hate him. of cos, being a pro-pr/high eq/softhearted person, i told him no lar. but i did tell him i was just angry with him for the way he treated me when i was in hosp.
his reply: "so that you can forget about me"

ya right. thank you very much leh. then i told him, "so u know my reply now - i dont hate u. anything else?"
he said nothing & asked if i have anything to tell him.

yest evening, i met up with kel n yq. kel told me r & the ahlian gf no more liao. so i asked him, if he has a gf. he told me no. i said i heard he has one. he said failed combination. no more liao.

ya i tort so also. but really felt like scolding him for treating me like tat for ah lian. but i ctrl... i said bye bye n hang up.

after tat, i had a sleepless nite. darn it......

brokebrokebroke

2006-01-22T22:21:00.000+08:00

learnt something yest.
LESSON 1
a little advice to all. dun ever go for cheap stuff. y?

EVIDENCE

before

after

bought this pair of sandals with Joiz at JP. thought we got some great stuff at real low price - $9.90 lor.. but that was what happened after the 3rd time i wore them. kaoz~ imagine! i was on my way from honglim food complex to fesq! there were 2 straps. initially 1 snapped while i was walking from csq to chinatown pt. den from honglim to fesq, the other gave way as well!! luckily i had a pair of shoes at fesq office. if not, die ah~ how to walk?? so paiseh while waiting for my colleague to come to my rescue.

LESSON 2

dont ever go shopping alone.

actually went orch with kit, my colleague, to look for a clothing she saw at Forever21 but couldn't find anything. ended up, i got myself a shirt. nvm. went to eat. while waiting for the food, i smsed almost the whole world if there is anyone who wanna do shopping at orch. but everyone seemed to be very busy. hmm.. seems like i m the only one without life. hahaa

anyway, ended spending $300 on the shoes, clothings n accessories. gosh! then it started to rain. took cab home.

very sad after spending the $300. suddenly i thought, jialat.. how can i go taiwan at this rate?? must win more money during cny now. lol.

ohya, my house will be celebrating cny on 年初三. wanna come?? senses, make this a gathering bah. den shift mine to this mth. so that i dont have to org later. lol.

think my spending thingy caused me too much stress. slept at around 11.30pm yest. den slept thruout the whole afternoon today. dreamt abt the fate of the money i spent. $$$$. lol.

on leave

2006-01-20T17:17:00.000+08:00

took leave today. but still i woke up at 0730hrs to have my breakfast. after that, read some mags and got hook in front of the pc. revamped the blog.

i knew i still have to face it. i still have to call the vendor. even though the am said she will call but no lor. say only. said others only want the easy way out. she herself also mah. just that she pushed everything to me. even the vendor said y she only speak to him when trying to close the deal, now got problem all pass to me. yalor. i wondered y also. don't ever let me climb on top of her. i will let her have the taste of her own medicine also.

my own mgr smsed me to compliment on the yest's nite event. that's very nice of her. but hai.. i still felt so useless. everything is down. even though i m on leave, i m not happy. not at all. cannot gamble this cny, confirm lose money. so sad. so suay. how to win????

going to take leave next week also. don't care.

ohya, i m planning to go taiwan during the gd fri week, who wanna go? jer, interested?? hehee can intro some nice places/cheap hotels/cool guy places?

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2006-01-19T15:22:00.000+08:00

heard the news? my coy just had a successful bid. the plot of land at somerset. hai... also don't what they are thinking of. stuck in the middle of nowhere, i think it is going to be inbetween some competitors again. cat fight coming up soon~

my bazaar guy hang up my phone yest. was so paiseh.. what can i say? he is actually a very obliging person. whatever i said, he tried his best to follow suit. just becos of a piece small area, things turned sour. don't think i really suit to be in this line or be a sales person. i don't mind giving him the space. its ok mah.. not that he nv pay, he paid alot already. so what if he earns alot, we also do earn alot already mah. y must we b so demanding? though he kept using the bigshot name, he still comply to us. the head thinks that it is very easy to handle this people. of cos, they r not the one facing the bullets. what they do is sit behind the walls and shout at u thru the walkie talkie, do this do that.

the tea chapter guy smsed to 'scold' me also. is it my fault that the mgr does not wish to release the deposit? y me? i nv receive ur email also my fault? not happy? just leave lor. i m more than happy. i fwd the sms to that mgr and she said she will handle them. ya, make sure u do.

later is the agents' nite. so many big shots not around. today is a big day for the coy. announcement for the working partnership between us and p***o for central retail. there will be press conference for that. so big shots all went there. us, the small flys, go and handle the agents.

going to take leave tomorrow. rest well. shop well. rot well.

sat is going to be another tough day. treasure hunt day. thought after that can just go home. but no, going to pp to check out the tentage again. ya again. y is my adhoc space always giving me so much trouble??????? argh....

i still hate u alot. y make me hate u? bastard. jerk.

titleless, directionless........

2006-01-18T22:18:00.000+08:00

i want a break, i need a break. i need to think wat i really want in life. i need help. i need strength. some enlightenings. i need hugs. i need pats. i need encouragement. i want to go back to school. i feel like crying....

i thought i can bear with it, i thought it is over, i thought i am strong and i thought i wont cry....

have been toying with the thought. to go or not to go. follow ur heart or ur brain. go for dream or reality.

if only life is like a dream. everyday u wake up, it is a brandnew start. if only...

my mind is just like the weather now. so blue so groomy...

i hate u

my exterior is freaky cold outside while d inside is super hot

2006-01-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

didnt really feel like working on mon. was lazing in my bed, deliberating... "To go or not to go"
after much internal arguments, decided to go for work. though i woke up late, was surprisingly early when i reached the office! okok, i reached around 0840hrs lar. 5mins earlier. but this is a rare case leh~ lol usually i reach ON D DOT.., hmmm maybe late by a few sec la. *lol*

my sr mgr was sick! down with bad flu & cough. only the 2 of us were in that office. seeing the way she coughed and sniffed, i asked her to c a doc. apparently, she did but due to her super hectic / nonsensical schedules of meetings, she couldn't use her mc. moreover, 1 mgr went hols, the other 1 has been on mc since 2 weeks ago. so talked about nobody is indispensible. not in this case man. ohya, i really think that the building's ventilation is super poor. so many people got sick.

talking about being sick. yeah, i am down with fever again. since yesterday evening. holy shit! hols leh~ sick. but the rainy day did help to soothe out the frustration abit. hahaa i know i m bad! still remember on ny eve, when i was with joiz & jl at heeren, i told them if we were to go home early, pray hard it rained! BIG DOWNPOUR! hahaa.

but the rain caused me lotsa trouble as well. my bazaar vendor was complaining. his tentage uses too much electricity and keeps causing the power to trip. den our technician had to go down and reset the thingy. it happened not just once or twice, it happens many many many many many many many many times!!!! it seemed like he almost quarrel with my engineering exe & property exe over the issue. he said we nv supply him with enough voltage, my exes told me we had enough but his electrician, dont know from which donkey coy, did not do a good job or one of the appliances was spoilt. kaoz... asked my exe if we could draw any line from the building itself, he said we shd not be compliance to all these shits and the voltage we gave was more than enough.

my vendor told me this,
"its cos of u. one call from u, i took up this place without having any vendors. now, it is raining everyday. den ur people is so difficult to work with. i dont wan to quarrel with them. if really cannot solve the problems, i will just leave. i lose abit of money nvm. i will ask for refund. the most i go over to d other building to do. there, indoor, dont have to care abt rain / shine. i can just let Ms XX know and she will let me have that place. y i make myself so bz? i have alot of things to do leh. i cannot always stay here to solve this kind of prob leh. blah blah blah."

always use some big shot to 'threaten' me. what can i say? hmm ok huh issit ermmm ......
very useless hor? cos of this, i had a nitemare, should be daymare cos i was taking a nap. i dreamt that the vendor really packed and go! the whole area was empty!!! at the very sight of the empty space, i woke up. ARGH~!~

but before this, i had another dream. i dreamt of him. of all people, of all time. i dreamt that he came back to look for me. and the useless me, actually took him back. duhz.. but it was just a dream. he is in some BIG FAT UGLY AHLIAN's arms now. *booooed*

kaoz... i hate to do all these man.. operational things also want me to settle. so tired.. freaky tired now. rain also my prob, no power also my prob, look not nice also my prob, simi sai also my prob. argh.....

suppose to b a new year, great year ahead one leh. y m i still so down??? hmm... maybe got to wait for the doggy to take over. chicken is a jinx - chicken pox, bird flu, and not to forget i admitted cos of chicken burger!!! hate the birdies. shit.. just took fried chicken wings. hahahaa

i wanna be taitai i wanna be taitai i wanna be taitai i wanna be taitai~~~~

2006-01-08T23:27:00.000+08:00

apparently things didn't go according to my plans. i didn't go home on time that day. supposed to work on sat but couldn't get up as i was singing til 3am the day bfore. reached home at 4am. thought i m a superwoman, still bragged to kel n yq that i confirmed can work the next day. hahaa.

nvtheless, was kenna waken up by peg's sms. spoilt the plan again. someone 'up' there didn't like the tentage my vendor had and wanted us to do something abt it. duhz.. no head no tail, how to solve the prob? wat if i added something, he doesnt like again? or i change the look, he complains again? also don't know wat he wants. hai.. boss ah boss, pls pls spare me from your mind game leh... i m just a 打工仔. not your worm, not u, i don't know how to read your mind. most impt of all, i hv nv even spoken to u before~ how the hell i know what u want???

sometimes, just couldn't stand all these top mgt people n office politics leh. they sit down there, just mumble a few words and the whole world will become chaotic. if according to his wish, den u can rest in peace for that moment. if not, continue to live in panic bah.

was damn angry yest. a colleague called to complain. saying why is she the busiest one when it is an A&P event. kaoz~ u r from the estate mgt leh. u r the PE for that building. of cos u should be the one doing the M&E and logistics work. if not, coy pay u for what? A&P has to plan events/promotions, get vendors/tenants, coordinate everything before the actual thing gets started. u expect me to go and order your men to clean the area, on the lights and draw electrical power for my vendors? thats ur job man. its operational.

WAKE UP YOUR IDEA!

going to drop an email to her and her mgr tmr.

got to handle the top exe and also got to pacify the middle level. ARGH~!~ if only i m a taitai now...... sad... sadder... saddest....

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anyway, went out wif ro & jy yest. they actually came to orchard to look for me cos i had to stay thru out to ensure the bazaar was prob-free. thx gers. finally passed jy her xmas gift. got hers and ro's gifts also. ro was complaining abt her gift for me. i actually asked for a clock. initially she refused to get for me. but i kept insisting so she gave in. she said the nxt day after she got me the clock, i went into hosp. damned 邪. she told me no more next time. hahaa in the end, i gave her 2ocents for the clock. hee so i got a clock at 20cents. damn cheap hor? LOL

went to the lounge at hyatt. forgot the name already. not bad. a nice place to sit down and chit chat. not in a big group lar. too rowdy will kenna chase out. will get my future date to bring me there again. ohya, got dresscode for guys. no berms / shorts. but they will lend u draw string pants. so not to worry. hehee but for flipflops mah.. i m not too sure. nxt time if we r going to have a small grp of poly gathering with chris down there, pls remind him to jeans n shoes. cant stand his rich-man attire. but i also realise only rich man kids wear berms / shorts + slippers to orchard rd. rich wanna tone down, poor wanna tone up (for guys only). gers, rich / poor, all wanna dress nice nice, even if its short, will also look stylish. unlike guys.

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rained the whole day. very lazy. but tort i have to do something for the upcoming cny! i have not gotten any new apparels / accesories and so on. so the 1st step, i did something which i always enjoy. guess wat?

not going to tell u. guess bah. will reveal the ans tomorrow. LOL. CIAOZ~~

:(

2006-01-05T12:55:00.000+08:00

have not been going home on time these few days. slept quite late oso. this is bad. going to change this habit!

so much things to do, as usual. stress starts to sip in as well. no good no good. hai... need to source to prospects, do pr, find out this and that, monitor them, handle complaints, chase payment, cheque lost? got to ask the tenant to reissue, rectify problems. kns leh. where got so much time lar. 1 colleague is leaving soon. more work to come, i suppose.

going to handle over whatever that is not mine to others. dont want to be so nice to people again. no point.

so today, go home early.

GOAL FOR THE DAY:
LEAVE ON DOT

1st day of work

2006-01-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

1st day of work. got alot of renewals not done. jialat. my pushcart list is going to be ugly. but still i was too tired? preoccupied? to follow up. sian. hai... cannot man. 1st day leh. WAKE UP!

went to remove the acrylic nails today after work. finally. so long nv see my own finger nails already. poor thing. Breathe as much as u can bah~ Shall not do another acrylic nails again. lol. Really appreciate shorter nails now after doing the acrylic nails. So cumblesome. cannot pick up coins, open can drinks, blah blah blah

was telling ger abt him and his newfound love. told her kel's description of the gf. u know what she said?
"maybe kel dont like ah lian leh. that's y he said she not gd looking."

DING DING DING!!! duhz... y must u b so blant lar~ ger is always like that. nv give me any face. make me so sad after hearing that. but i still choose to have selective listening, selective memory.
"she is ah lian, she is ugly. he has no taste. he has degraded."

lol. felt happier now. :)))))))))))))))

oh ya, who has lobang for new hp? i wanna buy nokia 7370 & motorola v3 / nokia 6111. actually intending to get 7370 for my dad only. his 8800 is now under my possession. so it is only fair for me to get him a new one. when my mum heard that, she immediately complained that i did not give her xtra money or buy her anything after getting bonus. duhz... the other day went to shop with her, did ask her which phone she liked & i will get for her. she was the one who din want. now, complained. somemore in front of my relatives. kns leh... woman *shake head*

My New Year Wish for Everyone

2006-01-02T19:25:00.000+08:00

!!!~Happy New Year 2006~!!!

2006-01-01T18:15:00.000+08:00

went to fes yest noon to meet my fleamart agent, 陈太. she bought me 1/2 dozen of chicken essence. so nice of her. but i was going out after tat. hence i left the chicken essence in the mgt office. hee

met mabel for lunch. had korean food. the food is good, very authentic. the ginseng chicken soup was fabulous. we also had bq chicken & spicy cold noodle. Rate: 8/10. hv not met up with mabel since may i think. she was my best buddy in sim. were updated each other's life, ups and downs. talked craps during the meal. den we decided to head for coffee. went to fullerton. apparently they were preparing for a countdown party. the lounges were closed! no choice, we went to coffee club to drink. before we could really enjoy the coffee, both of us had to rush off for our next appointment!

we aparted at the mrt station, where she headed to tampines n i headed towards orchard. met up with joiz & jl at heeren. they had their dinner at nydc but i was too full to continue anything further. after tat, time was still young. we decided to do some window shopping. saw a pair of pinky shoes at urs.

it was like luv @ 1st sight. hahaa wanna buy it immediately but suddenly remembered, my colleague, SC, she has the card for urs. endure... den wondered if robinson has urs as well, cos i hv vouchers for robinson. but no. so now got to depend on sc. but ex leh... $66.90 before discount. after discount is also like $54 lor... sianz... but nice leh. especially on me. hahaa

did not buy anything in the end. den we left for mzone. not a bad place cos i enjoyed dancing. long time nv dance already... don't really like the chinese band lar. but luckily they have techno songs! lol. the crowd started to come in around11pm. people were startng to have their fun. *spray* *spray* *spray* this is the 1st time i countdown in a pub. usually was with a group of friends at the chalet / house / along the roadside. hehee intended to go and find kel n yq earlier but the techno songs made me stayed for another 15mins more at least. hehee

left for Central ktv at Hongkong St. according to kel, central & mzone were by the same boss. don't know real or not. kenix was supposed to meet us but she put plane. told yq cos there was no diamond tortise around, she is not interested. saw dq's gf. looked dao leh. when dq introduced us to her, she just stared at me. so rude. but being the nicer one, i said hi and waved at her. den she returned a very polite hello to me. duhz.. time to chg gf lar. i m definitely much better den her man. :p

we left the place ard 3am. no luck for cabby. on our way to the coffeeshop at bq, the super high cum hilarious yq was greeting everyone who walked / drove passed him happy ny. not onie that, he even went to tease a ger and her bf was just in front of her lor. siao eh~ even kel couldnt tahan him. after ard 1/2hr, who came to our rescue? Anthony!! apparently, that yq called him and woke him up! n he really came all the way from woodlands to drive us home. lucky thing, everyone stays in the west.

reached home around 5am. super tired. concuss.

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everyone was asking what i have achieved in 2005 & if i have new year resolution for 2006. nv really thought of these. now i shall list one by one (from what i can remember :)

2005

1. found a job

2. celebrated all the festive seasons with a bf

3. received lilies

4. stayed in a1 ward

5. got my dream phone

6. attended the most no of weddings

7. did acrylic nails

8. cut away my long hair

9. cried / smiled / laffed the most

10. felt heartache

11. went to thai disco pub

12. went to canto disco pub

2006

1. drink lotsa water, lesser fibre

2. find a golden tortise - taitai 2006

3. get phones for pa & ma

4. love my family even more

5. find a new job

6. enrol in a design course

7. go for holidays

8. let go of him...

slogging after 3weeks absence

2005-12-31T02:22:00.000+08:00

supposed to be my bloc leaves week but worked throughout the week. my mgr got scared after this time round. she asked me to list down my job scope and all those small little details and standard operation procedures for my jobs so that when i m on leave, at least someone knows what / how to handle my work.

spent the week doing that and meeting up with tenants. did abit of PR. upon seeing me, everyone was like aiyoh what happen to you? so long never see you. you ok? must rest more leh. don't work so hard lar. relax lar. eat more ah. blah blah blah... hahaa

went shenton ktv with senses, j & jer on wed，顺便 celebrate senses' birthday. senses asked if i asked the others as well. duhz.. only waste my sms / time / effort. all along the gang nv really enjoy singing. tort they enjoyed the card game than singing. so i concluded that with such little time notice, it was not worth asking. hehee

saw alex at the ktv. still as small size. knew that he worked there but nv know that he is still there. Tort this kind of job usually won't last long. guess i underestimate him. hee

was reading my diary yesterday. the period when i just got together with him. sweet / sad / angry / sour memories... i stopped writing after some time. y? cause things got worse. everyday i would write similar things which i saw no point in continuing. so i stopped.

K msged me at 4am this morning, asking to meet me in the evening. i found this very fishy. asked him what's the ocassion. he said nothing. rubbish~ later he told me a friend asked him how were things going on between 'him' and me. K told him just friends lor. immediately i told K, "who said we are friends?" think he was abit stunned to hear that. but can't b bothered. i asked k if 'he' has a gf. k said don't know. once again, rubbish~ his bro leh!! *phui* what a friend indeed.

met up with ro today. gave her the xmas pressie. still remember there was once we bought each other exactly the same photo frame for each other. lol. always enjoy talking to her. even though we were just sitting next to each other in our sec sch days, everyday we would still call and chat on the phone till wee hours. until my mum bth and had to ask how come in the sch talk so much already still not enough. hahaa

after that we went to bq to find her bf. had a drink and headed home soon after.

was telling jer and senses that tw has a gf. they were very curious abt her. promised to send them her pic. hehee but only managed to catch jer on msn. so i sent her the pic. we came to a conclusion. tw's taste has not changed yet. similar to his ex's pattern. lol. senses, i guess u must be damned kan cheong now. will not let you know which one. give u some clues: she is in my friendster's list. go and chk it out yourself.

The worst xmas pressie

2005-12-28T10:57:00.000+08:00

yest i got 2 big blows in a row by 1 person.

1stly: he has a gf...

its kel who told me. he had a birthday bash at bq on xmas nite. his gf was there as well. kel went there and saw them. kel asked if i m still on talking terms with him. i said he nv called, neither did i.

2ndly: the gf was abit lian and not gd looking.

wahkaoz~ how can he find such a ger to replace me??????????? damn it!

i don't know to say. had trouble sleeping last night. was thinking abt the past. it really freaked me out that he can actually change so fast. shd have known earlier that he is best with his mouth. good in talking. even i lost to him... juz 1 mth ago, he called to tell me he still loved me alot. now, he is hugging another ger in his arms. can i trust guy? all bullshits leh.

but later, come to think abt it. 1mth before we got together, he was still crying over the previous relationship. 1mth later, we were together. so maybe i shouldn't be so surprised by this news. but an ugly ahlian gf... really cannot take it man. y i always lose to ah lian. previously, TP also like that. now him... treat me this way, will have karma one.. :(

what made me more frustrated is, KP knew this all along but nv tell me anything. still lied to me. can i still call him my friend? felt like a fool. y m i still brooding over him all these while when he is immersing himself in happiness?

having mixed feelings now. cant think.. *headache* wanna take leave but shd i? at home lagi jialat. what shd i do? maybe like wat joiz said, i juz need some time. but how long? argh! i hate guys!

Happy boxing day & Happy Birthday to you

2005-12-26T00:57:00.000+08:00

is it because of the age or is it my life is just too bland? this x'mas is one of the most boring x'mas. went to a friend's place to eat and play mj. she din prepare any gift for us cos we nv mentioned anything abt the gift. joiz gave me body lotion from crabtree & evelyn. nice fragrance. thx joiz! i love it.

yest afternoon went to angie's place. after giving birth, she looks the same. still so skinny. ger was commenting that she doesn't look like someone who had just given birth. hopefully we will be like her next time also. her bb is abt 3kg. cute but i still cannot figure out she looks like who. some said look like father, don't real or not. how to differentiate lar. still so young leh. i reckoned they bullshit one. lol

supposed to meet poly friends for ktv in the noon but senses told me he needed to do some housekeeping and don't know what time could meet up. duhz... the onie one replied was suz. the rest no response. hai... hence it was cxl (once again).

saw chris online just now. asked him abt the next gathering. he told me cos i needed to attend the dnd so the gathering was cxl. den got to move on the jan already. where got such thing one lar. duhz...

today is his birthday. suddenly all the memories came back. last year this time, we were still together. happily celebrating his birthday with the usual gang. now, don't know if he is celebrating the birthday with his friends or who... have the urge to msg him but trying to ctrl myself. hate this feeling man... life is so meaningless now. But come to think about it, even if i m still with him, my life will also be as meaningless. senses, i know you don't like it. but no choice lar. let me let out the feelings bah. don't need to think of this inspirational phrases in your next blog. its ok. hehee

Lonely X'mas Eve's Eve

2005-12-23T18:34:00.000+08:00

Sianz Sianz Sianz~~ This is the word that best describes my feelings right now. Almost 3 weeks nv work already. Today everyone thought I was going back to work, but I never turned up. Everyone kept calling / sms me. Duhz... My mgr failed to convey the msg to them. Far East Sq office is having X'mas lunch today. I can't go cause I am supposed to stay at home and rest. *Sob* But they told they will keep all my presents for me. Hehee Must bring many big paper bags to work on Tues. If not, cannot bring the gifts back. hahaa

Went for my checkup yest. Told my doc that I still feeling very lethargic these days. He said cos my intestine is currently under malfunction state. Others can absorb 80% of the nutrients yet, I can only absorb 50% the most. Duhz.. Lousy intestine. My colleague commented that I should ask the doc if I can go for intestine transplant. Not a bad idea. Shall ask the doc next time.

These days my legs and stamina are so weak that I dare not go out alone for too long. After my checkup, my mum came and we went shopping together. It has been donkey years since I last went shopping with my mum. We went orchard to do my last min X'mas shopping. Yeah. Finally got the things I want. Tired. After that went home.

If you think that that's the end of my shopping spree, then you are wrong! Went to meet Joiz. Went to JP. Full of people (as usual). She had no choice but to park at the multistorey carpark at the opposite. This time round, I bought things for myself. Pampered myself for these few weeks of hardship gone thru. Hahaa.. Spent almost 300 bucks in a day. Superb man! Though I enjoyed the shopping spree, I still hope that next time, I will be carrying tons n tons of branded paper bags instead of taka/isetan/metro/not-so-branded paper bags. LOL

Asked people out today. but seems like everyone has date already! Still waiting for someone to date me... Tomorrow will be quite hectic (if everything is cfmed). Morning going to Angie's bb ger's full month celebration. Noon may be meeting Poly friends for ktv. Nite may be with ex-colleagues. Hmm... if not, I shall again rot at home.

This is not the 1st time I rot at home during X'mas eve already. Is it bcos of age? I do not really enjoy spending a rowdy night during the festive season. Crowds n crowds n crowds. Filled the whole town area / public transport. Sehz. Take public transport cannot, take pvt car lagi worse! Hai.. But if people still wanna ask me out, you are most welcome. LoL.

MC-ing At Home

2005-12-21T00:11:00.000+08:00

Spent the whole day revamping my blog. Nice? I did the blog skin myself. Trial and error so many times to get the right layout and design. Can be improved still, it will be. hehee

Life has been pretty slow. Have not started work yet. Stayed at home most of the time. Went to be Ger's model for her manicure on Sun. Sat there 7 hrs!!!

What do you think? Not bad right? This was the 2nd time she did acrylic nails. Not bad her skills but she needs to speed up lots n lots. But I believe the speed will pick up gradually. After this, we went to get gift for Angelia's bb ger.

Told mum abt Angie's bb ger, the 1st thing that she mentioned was "See la. People even got a bb already. Where's ur bf?"

I replied, "U wan bb ah? Wait I really give birth to one 9mths later , u don't cry." LOL.

After buying the gift, I really cannot tahan. We boarded a cab home. Don't know why nowadays I have no strength to walk too long. Felt so weak. Don't dare to go out alone. Jialat leh.. How to work? All the Xmas gifts are still in the shopping malls waiting for me to buy them back!

Went to watch Perhaps Love and The Promise with my auntie today.

The Promise, a flop. Don't waste money. There is one part which they had edited with such terrible skills! The change is so abrupt. But with or without the terrible editing, the show is still horrengous. hahaa

Perhaps Love is better. Very similar to Moulin Rouge / Chicago. The songs are nice. Jacky Cheung is good. His voice, no fight! Takeshi Kaneshiro is the best lar! Handsome guy! His eyes..... So dazy... Zhou Xun mah.. Don't like her husky voice. Too low. But was surprised that when she sings, her voice is so different. She better sings more than talk next time. hahaaa. Ji Jin Hee, a big time extra 路人甲. Super bo liao.

Next show I am going to watch will be Memoirs of a Geisha. January 2006...

After the shows, I was supposed to meet Kenix to buy Xmas gift and also a wedding gift for our cousin's wedding. But super tired, so cancelled the date. Hopefully I can go and get the gifts tomorrow.

The Worst Has Gone

2005-12-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

Finally! I am back! Had been feeling terrible for the past 2 weeks... All because of a stupid burger.... Cause me to stay in hosp for almost 10days! Though this is not the 1st time admitted to hosp, this is the 1st time I stayed in A1 ward. Nothing fantastic. Just that you get to choose the meals from menu, a personal room with toilet. But you cannot get to see those young handsome housemen too often. Probably because they thought A1 patients are more difficult to handle so don't dare to touch. Hahaa

Anyway, housemen do drop by - to poke needles onie. Poor me have been suffering from endless needles poking sessions.

Had been put on drip for several days, til my poor tiny little vein cannot tahan, swollen. Then they changed location! From right hand to left hand, from the wrist to middle part. There was this stupid doc. I must say my treshold of pain is superb. He poked my hands 3x and still couldn't find my veins, then he dug and dug and dug. Can you imagine??? I had to tell him to stop poking and find another doc to poke, if not I am not going to continue with the drip then he went to seek help. KNS leh~ Think I what? Guinea Pig ah! Next day, I complained to my own doc. Now I have become a 名副其实的药罐子.

My dear friends... I am fine now. No more fever, no more tummy pains. Having mc til next thurs. After that I will be clearing leaves... hahaaa But my mgr told me to go back to work if I feel better during my leaves then they let me clear next year. Also can lar. Ar bo, stay at home also nothing to do. I felt as if I just got a month of paid leave leh! Envy mah? LOL.

But I really gave my colleagues lots of shits to clear.. At the busiest moment of the year I went on mc. They don't know head / tail still have to follow up for me. Have to give them a big treat when I go back to work. Tenants called, I ignored. Trouble come, I ignored. Can't do anything also. Can't even handle my own body, let alone the others.

Dad kept telling me to change job. He said this job is too stressful. I am such an useless daughter. So old already still don't know how to take care of myself. Everytime, when I went to hosp, everyone in the family will suffer. Especially my mum. She had to travel to hosp daily to look after me then got to rush back home to do housework. It was damn boring in the hosp somemore. I still got med to keep me drowsy. She has to wait for me to wake up and see if I need anything. Then my dad also. Would rush to hosp frm work to see me, buy the food that I craved for when I can eat. Of cos, other than my own family, I must thank those who had visited / msged / called me during this period. I always know that I have very good 人缘. Now, I have proven it right again! hahahaa. Thanks pals! For your concern!

Ohya, change my blogskin. But Joiz said previous one was better. Gonna look for new one during the mc period. hehee

Mid week

2005-11-30T22:19:00.000+08:00

Finally I managed to do an overhaul to my pc yesterday night. Now it is as good as new! Great!

Supposed to take leave tomorrow and go M-zone with Joyce and friends. Planning to shake my head off, til my legs wobble by the end of the night. but last min my Manager gave me a call to follow her to do site recee at various locations with some big shot partners. Sianz.. All plans cxlled.

Don't know why eversince I started working, I never like to stay up late during weekdays. I sleep at 10+ 11pm, wake up at around 6.45am. Alot of people told me I sleep very early and very long. But no lor.. it is not enough for me. I still have to drag myself out of the bed. Even if I slept at 9pm, I will still have the same problem. But if I slept at 3am and woke up at 8am, I will have no problem at all. Thus, I deduce that, "It is not the number of hours you slept. It is the time you wake up."

Saw Jer today at BB interchange. Guess she must be watching Harry Potter. Senses is having bloc leave this week. Must be super sian lar him.. K lar. Coz of our unusual relationships, both Jer and I shall sacrifice one night for him. Tomorrow 8pm Walawala. Btw, my bloc leaves start from 24Dec till 02Jan. Please ask me out! hahaa

Was browsing through my Friendster's list and realised that T has uploaded a pic of him and his gf. Should be the one who was once his mistress then, gf now. Told ger that T muz have loved her alot, if not, he won't divorce and be with her. Idiot.. Still tell me he wanted a divorce so that he can concentrate with his career. A family will only add on to his burden. Rubbish... So fast got a gf. Then began to think of our past.. Hai.. I am not stupid, coz I left him. Hahaa Once again, Guys can't be trusted. *Phui*

Depressed... I was being beaten up, defeated terribly. I knew it was a solid wall and I still went ahead. Not the 1st time already but I refused to give up. Stupid or nv say die? Now, I am going to retreat. I reckon if I ever think back, I am going to feel so amused or rather ashamed of myself. Please let me have "selective memory syndrome" when I grow older. Treat myself better, I deserve better treatment.

Lifeless

2005-11-27T22:39:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday, we went out to celebrate our parents' 30th year wedding anniversary. *cheers* 3 couples - my parents and 2 uncles. The 3 families and a few cousins and uncles went to Boon Lay Restaurant. Apparently, some of my cousins thought it was at Jurong East above the NTUC and took cab there. Hahaa Luckily my mum told us beforehand, if not, I would be one of the blur one. Upon reaching then realised for a sumptuous meal. 2 of the most craving dish - 鲍翅，北京鸭. *Slurp*

The whole week has been pretty slow for me. Not much achievement in work / personal life. Hai.. am I giving myself too much pressure? I hope not. Don't like working nowadays. No pc at my new workstation. IT damn troublesome and slow.. Almost 1 month has gone but still no sight of it. Super unproductive.

Was having breakfast in the office when one of my managers commented that my phone was an idiot phone!! Kaoz~ Though she didn't mean it (I supposed so), still hurt my fragile heart.. I know that phone doesn't have much functions and its way too ex but it is not an idiot phone mah. Its the positioning mah.. Sour grapes!

Monday, I realised my friend went missing. Couldn't find him til now. Suddenly MIA. Called his hp, it was off. Called his house, his parents said not at home and cut the line. Really don't know what has happened to him. Hope he is fine.....

The only fruitful day was yesterday. Finally I learnt how to change the background of the friendster and change the blogskin of my blogger. Took me superduper long to finally do up the 2. Thanks to Jan and Joyce. If not for them, my friendster and blogger will still be as dull as me. hahaa. Give me some comments k?

Guess I am not the only one facing problems. Or rather my problems seems trivial compared to my friends... One is getting a new flat soon but she is still uncertain if he is really the ONE. Duhz... Forget about the flat then. Hai... Another one juz told me her mum is asking for a divorce. We all suspect her mum has a new bf... Poor dad of hers.. He is a good man, good husband, good daddy. Is it true that the bad one is always the more preferred one? 人善被人欺？Suddenly I feel that I am very blessed indeed. Have a happy family. :)

Does alcohol really boost one's confidence level? He called again. He was drunk again. He told me he love me again. He told me we cannot be together again. Then why you called? I asked. I told him to call me again when he wants to tell me, "I want to be with you." He said ok. You believe? I don't.

Lousy weeks

2005-11-19T22:16:00.001+08:00

Today is just another lazy Sat for me. Went to Far East Plaza to be one of the spectators for the NexFad fashion show this afternoon. When I reached there, 1st thing I did was to find my mgr to let her know that I did support them. hahaa. Went makan with Joyce n Jeanette and went home.

Went to Espirit event last week. Saw so many mediacorp people. Alan Wu, the coolest of all. Juliann Hee has this plastic look and heard he is a gay. Elicia, petite with huge b**bs. And many more. But this was nt the best part. The bests was I saw one of the directors' son. Damn handsome.. This is what I meant by young and yandao and rich!! His office is just in my office building! hahaaa but he has got a difficult mum. Turn off. hahaaa

Was kanna bullied by tenant. Those people especially that skinny, chiko faced guy! Don't wanna make payment still wanna shift in. Think what? His house ah. Then said I very gekgao. Abit also cannot. Of course lar~ Who you think you are? I don't wish to talk to you. Cheapo tenant. All because of that stupid mgr lar. Cause me suffered so much. hopefully last fri was the last time I have to deal with them.. That chiko faced guy still dare to ask y I nv smile. I nv scold him its gd enough already lor. Luckily the other guy knew that I was very pissed off with them so he kept telling the chiko guy to stop his nonsense. But that chiko guy still continued but I just ignored him and gave him that "cant you juz shut up" kind of look. He still dared to say he will make me smile when they commence business. KNS. I will nv step into that area from 5 dec onwards!

He came on Tue night suddenly. During our conversation, he suddenly smiled and told me that was just me. what was that supposed to mean? He said I just wanna win in my conversation. He said guys also need people to give in, to pamper, to hong them. but I only wan people to hong me.. Idiot.. Go and find your mum lar. Came to make me sad only. As if I really so bad like that. But do guys really wish for that? He asked if I knew y we cannot b together. Still mad at him, I said ya, cos u dont want to be with me. Then he said til now I still think that it is he who refused to be with me. Then he sighed. Argh! True mah. I knew our differences but its him who refused to work harder to work things out mah. MAdDENnIng!

Supposed to go out with Ken and others to party as Lili was leaving on Fri morning. but it was cancelled last min. The couple quarrelled over Ken's overspending the nite before. Alamak.. Den ken juz left home without Lili. Leaving her crying in the room the whole nite. Idiot him. He told they nv talk, nv say bye when she chked in. Just got married leh... Then quarrelled cause of money issues.. Money, is the root of all evil...

Oh ya, I just cut and rebonded my hair. hee

Trashy Feeling

2005-11-08T13:04:00.000+08:00

Went to Ken's nephew's bday bbq yest. Was surprise to see the group at Boon Lay MRT. A stupid triangle relationship was going and Rick was there trying to be a peace maker. The rest was there watching show. Canot tahan man. Over a ger who is not really pretty. One of the guys was actually not bad looking! Love is blind. Superb blind man. Y cant I have such yan yu ah? hahaa

I din eat alot. Chatted with them and heard alot of qian bian wen da ti. Laff alot too. But I was not happy. We are just sitting beside each other but I dare not looking into his eyes. When I asked qns, I asked everyone except him. Nv know that it can be a torture sitting next to or looking at someone once so close to u. Guess I think too highly of myself before. After the bbq, they went to pubs. I nv go. Had strong urge to follow suit but I din. Should put everything to a stop by now. Shouldn't even have been to the bbq.

Couldn't sleep last night. Toss and turn for the whole night. Ended up with a mc for today. Useless ah?

Did Ken & Lili ROM vcd just now. Intending to give them today. Dunno if Ken is free to get the vcds.

Tired. Going to change my hairstyle. Got to give myself a new look, a new identity.

U

2005-11-01T22:13:00.000+08:00

Work to forget u
Play to forget u
Sleep to forget u

Holidays, I think of u
Mondays, I think of u
Nites, I think of u

Mahjongs, I think of u
Frog porridges, I think of u
Movies, I think of u
Arcades, I think of u
Sleeps, I think of u

Wake up in the middle of the nite, Cos of u
Log in in the middle of the nite, Cos of u
Post this, Cos of u

Another week has passed

2005-10-29T18:59:00.000+08:00

Last Mon was Ken's big day. His ROM. Both of them were sooooooo excited and kan chiong abt it. haa. Ken's heart beat so fast man! Mainly his coy's men were there. Only both Weiseng n I were from BBSS. Weiseng left quite early lar. Too boring for him I supposed. Finally this big boy is a married man. How unbelievable. haahaa Blissful Marriage to u! Cheers!

Had alot at nite while playing card game with the rest. Within an hr, I was super blur and my head ached for hours. The card game was fun. Something new. Can teach Garry they all next time when we go out. Dont always play Big2 lar. hee

Had a huge quarrel with him on Sun nite. Den on Mon, tort I wouldnt acknowledge him when we met at the chalet. But no. Still talked but abit awkward. Trying so hard to pull myself out of the situation but everytime when I finally hardened my heart not to call/sms him, he would call n call. Den I crumbled. Useless me.. Made up my mind not to contact him ever again on Tue. Den heard from Ken, he had an accident on Tue nite. Ctrlled myself, went to zzzz. Wanted to sms him to ask abt him, wat for.. Den I heard phone rang in d middle of d nite. Tort I was dreaming. Dunno after how long den I realised its my phone. In a blurry state, I picked up d call. Its him. Chatted for 2 hrs. Lots of silence. I told him to find someone who can support him and accompany him. I can nv b the one. I will only bruise his ego, his feelings, tell him d hard cold truth... Maybe I really dont know to be one's gf. How ah? Jialat..

Will be shifting office on Mon. To Central Sq. Sad. NEL. So damned sickening far.... *Sob* *Sob* Guess my current colleagues will miss me terribly. No worries, I will be back! hehee I still need to go back to handle those tenants n stuff.

Went to Pacific Plaza for the past 2 days. Met tenants, checked out the new roadshow event. The new event organizer is a bloody guy without integrity man! Liar. Told me his roadshow was a movie launch yet I saw soooo many different pdts there. Seemed more like a bazaar and the movie tickets giveaway was just a gimmick to me! worse thing is, there is a promotion for a beauty spa!!! How dare him! My manager gave me a call when she saw that. I called that organizer, asked guard to stop them from promoting. No use. going to send him a letter of warning. Trying to bully me leh! Idiot leh. He still has another event to do down there lor. Going to make sure that he give me all the details. If not, I will not allow him to doing roadshow and going to forfeit his deposit...

Ohya our 2nd poly gathering did not happen!! Thanks to the guys leh~ Put plane at the super last minute. Really super HIGH FLYER man. hahaa

So Sad Its Sunday

2005-10-09T20:57:00.000+08:00

Another bz week has just passed, before I can enjoy myself, new week is coming soon. I think I am getting migrain nowadays. Everyday headache. Last time, 1 norgesic can make me concuss. Now, 2 still so so only. Jialat.

Last Wed, a NEA officer came down to my workplace n told us those pushcarts selling food have to stop selling by end of the day! Pengz~ Reason? Illegal hawkers! hahaa No licence. Damn it! Idiot Aaren. Dua me again. Within a mth after he left, gave me so much trouble. Initially with the crab feast thingy, now this. Told me don't need licence as long as there r no cooking or heating of food. Bullshit! When I called to ask him, he told me no black n white, only verbal and he doesnt know who he talked to and when. sianz. In the end, he said I suay. Hwah~ pissed Off! Lesson learnt! Next time, dont believe in whatever people tell u, find out yourself and in black and white. Went to NEA office at Redhill on Fri. Got a shock when I reached there! I tort I went back to the 80s. Hahaa. Anyway, in the end, only 2 out of 4 can operate without the licence. Gonna get scolding from the bosses and my own mgrs and directors.

Quarrelled with him on Fri. Over the same thing. Den I told him don't return my sms even when I bombed him with them next time. So that I can get used to life without him. Den I said something which hurt him I tink. Now, he really nv reply leh!!! !@#@%#%% Nvm, he will regret one.

All bcos of JY and Ro, after the talk with them, all the emotions came right after that. Den feel like talking things out. Actually the week before last we did talk already. Not point talking so much also when we nv put the effort to do something out of it. Oh gosh, where is my golden tortise?? Please get me out of this shit.

Ohya, something to be happy. My Godsis is back!! Back from Thai for 1 wk hols. So long nv see her. Even though she lives in Thai with her mum and grandma all these years, she still remembers us. She is so obedient man. She cooks and takes good care of my god grandma when she came here everytime. Good ger! Getting taller. Think by next yr, she will be taller than me. Going to apply leave on Tue to bring her out. :) I love shopping on weekdays~

TGIF

2005-09-30T19:33:00.000+08:00

Received a sms from Dewei (the drunkard) today. Now then he realised his pics had been taken during his drunkard state!! & he was asking for the culprit. Hahaaa~ Of cos could'nt let him know lar~ There were only 4 pax on that day. If he were to know who, must be either Jer or Garry who told him cos my lips are ZIPPED :-x
hee

Have been a bz week. Meetings after meetings. Nv had headaches for the whole week before. But now I got it. Wanna take mc so much. But I couldn't bear to leave my workstation. I love my job. hahahaa

Most of the media agencies were surprised about our restructuring. I only told those I have liaised frequently. Those newbies, nah, can't be bothered. Anyway, new mgt is better I reckon. The new head definitely has a clearer head than the previous one. By end of next week I will be officially under Corp Leasing Dept. Good or bad? Too early to tell. *Pray hard*

One thing I learnt alot from this job is people mgt. Not only I have to deal with my mgrs, I have to deal with prospects and tenants. All sorts of crazy requests and demands they have. Did I mention about this ah beng tenant whom I have to deal with? Feel like killing him. None of my colleagues likes him. Not even my mgr. Chao ah beng. Asked him to remove his things, kept telling me he is not the boss, he couldn't make decision. Unless his boss tells him to do so, then he will. I cannot take pics of his place lar, I cannot fine him lar. Asked me to install another camera for him. KNS~ Who does he think he is? I am the mgt leh~ This is my place. He is just a tenant leh, I m the LANDLORD. Blardy man. Threaten to call police. Siao. Of all places, people only kah jiao his place. Some thing must be wrong with them already mah. Call police lor. There is nothing I can do also. His enemy or some animals enjoy shitting at his place, what can I do? My guard saw nothing mah. The camera nv capture anything mah. U wan u install camera yourself lor. But get my approval 1st. :p

Do people really get this bighead syndrome after getting abit of fame? There is this big shot idol from SG who will be performing at Far East Plaza tmr. The big shot idol demanded a singing mic or else he won't sing. Siao~ HK singers also used our normal mic to sing ah. What singing mic does he want??? Told my colleague to ask him get himself. Ask SDF to sponsor for his mic. We don't have.

Going for a movie later. Myth or Tim Burthy's Corpse Bride. Wanna watch the latter more. Later see how.

Gatherings

2005-09-24T19:06:00.000+08:00

Time flies. Before I knew it, almost 1 month has past since the last gathering we had with Poly yr 3 mates. Yesterday was the official launch of our planned gathering. I only managed to drop emails to them about the location and time for the gathering. Some nv read email, as expected. So I smsed them in the morning. Though also kind of last minute lar, at least I got remind people leh. :p lol

Jer & Chris reached Marina Square 1st. The rest of us were late. So they went to find a restaurant for us. My hp was bombarded by the guys one by one, "Organiser late ah? How can?' In the end leh, Garry & Dewei also late mah. Only Chris was early. But this wasn't the best thing for the night. We have a 'show-face' ger, Suz. She actually came over to Balaclava after her dinner with her friends. Tort that she will join us after that, but immediately after she saw us, she announced that she was there to say hi-bye. *Seh* The funniest part was when almost drunk Dewei joined us. He msged Suz and Suz called him drunkard! hahaha He had grobbled 15cans of beer before joining us!!! In the end, we nv let him have any drink except a glass of warm water. Thruout the nite, he was sleeping at there.

Have uploaded some of the pics. Chk out the NiteOut @ Balaclava Link.

Garry wanted to discuss 2 big plans yesterday but in the end, Suz left before even she hit the seat, Jean was away, Dewei was down. So the plans were casted aside again. Garry asked for suggestions but in the end we ended up giving him funny ideas. He can't tahan then complained that he wanted to be serious in front of us but we nv gave him the chance. Boh pian leh. The impression of u being the cranky guy has already deeply eteched into our minds.

Met up with Xuer on Thurs. She brought her bf. 1st impression: not bad, boyish looking, quiet but think he is super active type. Caring to her. From her description of him to me earlier on and our 1st meeting. Happy for her. Finally she found someone who can be as active n caring as her. perfect match! hehee Den we mentioned abt Esther. Long time nv go out with her already. Must find one day to have at least a coffee session with her..

Sick...

2005-09-22T18:25:00.000+08:00

Kanna attack by some deadly flu bugs suddenly. Was perfectly fine this morning. After I settled down in the office, started to sneeze n sneeze. Felt like dying then. But still, I could still go John Little to shop. Hahaa. Told my colleague, I have this 天生劳碌命 fate. The 1st time I had breakfast out of office and went jalan jalan during office hours, I kanna flu. Can't even 'eat snake' during office hours. hahaaa. Bought a few items during the short trip. After the shopping session, my flu got worse. My colleagues asked me to go and see doc, I told them raining, very troublesome. Kanna scolded. Rain can go shopping but can't see doc. Lol. :p

There goes my spring cleaning session. Told the supervisor to find me lots and lots of boxes for storing stuff, he actually told me he only had those boxes for tissue!!! Siaoz~ Of cos I want those big one lar. Tissue boxes for what? Put pens ah? Siaoz.

He told me I am too rational. Which is y we couldn't be together. A normal conversation can always lead to an argument. I know he has big dreams to achieve. His never-say-die attitude is also one of the love-hate point for me. Too stubborn. Not that I wanted to bruise his ego or pour cold water at him. But I just wanted to let him see from another perspective. I never say he cannot have dreams but not a huge bubbled dream. I just want to let him see the whole pic. I did these becos I care. Even though we are no longer together. I told him I care, I treat him as a good friend n only a good friend will warn him of the danger ahead. I can jolly well tell him go ahead with his goals as it doesn't affect me, maybe I can even take advantage of him in the future. Who knows. In the end, we ended the conversation with him telling me that he never like to tell me about his plans cause I never listen to him. Pot calling kettle black. :p

Always hate people for lying to me. He knows I hate it but still did it. For what reason? I don't know. Trying to hide the truth about himself? Trying to play mystery? Maybe. But don't play with me lor. I mean if I ask you something and you do not wish to tell me, just tell me straight in my face or beat around the bushes if you are trying to play hard to get. I am fine. What I can't stand is, I never ask for it, you r the one who wanna let me know about something, yet you lie about the thing. I mean this is ridiculous wat... Then wat made me even madder was, he still dared to say he had already revealed the truth to me, y am I still so mad about it!!! Hey Hey, I am mad not cause you have let me know the truth but the fact that you lied to me!

Guys nowadays are even harder to understand...

Ups & Downs

2005-09-21T17:43:00.000+08:00

This Monday morning I had a stupid dream. Dreamt of Rick.. He wanted to woo a pretty lady and asked me for my opinion. I told him to go ahead. Before I knew, he was already holding her hands & still dared to 晃来晃去 in front of me!! Bth~ Think the dream was abit too much for me. Cause the next moment, I was awake.. So upset that I woke up. hahaa I told him about the dream and made him promise that he will never ever bring his gf to me, unless I ask him to bring. Even if I ask him to bring, they cannot 晃来晃去 in front of me, can only show face and go off. :p

Heard that another 17yr old guy was kanna charged for being a 'racist' in his blog! Wah.. Guess the only thing you can go against with is the terrorist. Period. haa.

Was late for work today. Den my mgr was already in the office! So many days nv saw her. As swiftly as I could, I slipped into my cubicle. Not that she will scold me or what, she is a nice lady, but paiseh mah.. Was late for 30mins! All bcos of the stupid breakfast lar. Was shopping around for my breakfast but couldnt make up my mind. In the end, went to work emptyhanded. Duhz.

Had a long meeting with her. So much pending matters to settle before the handover. Then juz as I thought I can have a peaceful day today, Uncle Tan (my Engineering Exe) called me to tell me that a tenant wana bring in a 5tonne boomlift to setup for tomorrow's event! Siao~ 5tonne leh. Nowadays, people are getting more n more cunning. They only mentioned to you those that would definitely be approved. Those they thought surely will be rejected, they kept quiet. Den they gave u a BIG SURPRISE on the actual day. Trying their luck... See me small small wanna eat me. Idiots.. Too bad, I am representing the Landlord. I said no, what can you say? :p Moreover, I have got Uncle Tan. He supported me also. hee. But come to think about it, I also did the same thing lar for my last event. Trying to fool the authority but eventually no choice but to change venue. hahaa What goes around, comes around. Dun Play Play. hahaa

But dun think that the word Landlord is very big. Sometimes tenants are even bigger. One tenant wanted a roadshow space. I held on to that space cos it was been booked. Then she told me they r tenant, shd enjoy priority. Told her priority will be given if she comes to me before the initial client. First come first serve basis. Then she agreed to wait for my news. She sounded so compromising and cheerful then. But before I knew it, another mgr from other dept called me to find out what happened. Then she told me since my client has not confirmed with me, then it is not a first come first serve basis. What is this man.. There she was so amiable to my request. Behind, she called to complain. *Argh* People with no integrity! C them no up! Then no choice got to give them the space but they don't have enough budget for it. In the end, still want to bargain the price. Think wat? Market ah? But eventually, still got to give them lar, though not at the price we fixed earlier, still acceptable. Much better then what they counter-offered. Good money for that small area I must say.

Solving all these probs are enough to make me run up and down, here and there. So much so that I am getting headaches more n more frequently. Then, it seems that I am not the only one getting sick! Now the office left only 4 of us, 3 (incl. me) r down with all kinds of illness. Something must be wrong, either the work or the place. Hmm...

Ken called me yesterday when he touched down. Told me a shocking news. He is getting ROM on 24 Oct! Not that I don't know about his upcoming ROM but I thought it is going to be in Dec. He told me cos he could only find a chalet during that period. The other timings are fully booked. *Sehz* Funny man. Where got people choose date according to the availability of the chalet... The other day he told me his mom asked Rick and I to be their witnesses. Cause she tort its better to leave all these to the youngsters. Hahaa Cannot imagine the scenario, its like 2 kiddos getting marry and 2 kiddos being the witnesses. Can you imagine??? Weird right? Hopefully he has gotten rid of that idea.

Today's already Wednesday and I haven't planned for Friday's gathering with yr 3 Polymates! Jialat. Makan then R&R.. Went to Marina Sq last Sunday. Quite a no. of outlets have already opened. Can try there. After that can also go Suntec or Millenia for a drink. Actually was thinking of having meals and drink at Riverside Point. Can go there and unsettle stuff with Ana before meeting them for meals. Kill one bird with two stones. But chk out the prices for the meals. *Pengz* See what's their decision bah.

Tomorrow I am going to do spring cleaning for my store rooms! Promised Gwen to do it before I move office. Moreover, Director commented about our A&P corner being too messy. Throw face. How can 2 people use 4 storerooms and still not enough. Hahahaa True true. Going to uncover the truth tomorrow. Hee Finally, can wear casually on a fine weekday :)

Official Launch

2005-09-19T15:30:00.000+08:00

I registered this blog since last year and only now then I finally decided to launch it and drop a few lines (hopefully). hee

Met up with Garry, Jer & Dewei last month. When Garry chided me for not updating him about my life. Duhz.. Kaypo. hahaa Then I realised he is a BLOGGER too! hahaa But that funny guy said he needed to draft his blog beforehand so would take awhile for him to update his blog everynow and then. He told me to start a blog too, so that people like him who are interested in my personal life can know what has happened to me.

So, to prevent him from making a fool in front of me, I have decided to start my blog..

Too many things happened during work this month. Exciting month indeed. With Aaren's departure, my workload has increased tremendously. All his half-completed works are still half-completed. Then news about restructuring in the org also started to finalise. I will be under Corporate Leasing instead of A&P Retails. But the jobscope is still more or less the same, except those that are "above the ground" are no longer under my care. Those "down to earth" things will still be mine. Hai... But this is not the worst part. What is worse is, I will be leaving Far East Square!!! No more snacking in the noon, teabreak already! No more food downstairs... & I have to travel NEL... But those who want to go Club Momo after work, can look for me. My office is at Central Square. Very near huh? hehee

With this very bz work schedule onhand, my dear Garry can still put me to organise gathering in Sept!! Till now, still thinking where to go. Any suggestions???